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EC+AM=4ever Chapter 34

February 4, 2010
By TeamJacobArchuleta ELITE, Chicago, Illinois
TeamJacobArchuleta ELITE, Chicago, Illinois
183 articles 7 photos 484 comments

Favorite Quote:
He's the one I call in the middle of the night. He's the one who makes everything alright. He loves me with no regret...I just haven't found him yet.

June 23, 2009
10:00 a.m.
Ash's House

"What's the matter with you?" I demanded right when Ash opened up his front door. I was holding the letter from Father Mulligan in front of his face.

He snatched it out of my hand and read it over. "What were you doing going through my mail?" he returned, outraged.

"I asked you first." I remarked, not wanting to be proven guilty of snooping. He looked away from me, unable to meet my gaze. "Answer me!" I shouted.

"I'm sorry, I just hoped that..." He shook his head, sighing heavily. "I'm sorry. I should have told you that I was still meeting with Father Mulligan."

"Yeah, no kidding," I remarked. "But why? We aren't getting married, Ash."

"I just thought that maybe, you would come around. I just couldn't let it all slip away so easily. I just hoped that we could fix things."

"Well you aren't off to a very good start. It doesn't help to go behind my back and make preparations for a wedding that I already canceled."

"Ok, fine, I was wrong. But I still want to know why you were going through my mail." He crossed his arms, his eyes hard and demanding.

"Well your mailbox was open, so I walked over to close it. I saw the envelope and I just grabbed it without thinking."

"So in other words, you were snooping." he clarified.

"I guess you could put it that way." I muttered.

"Well then I guess that evens it out. I went behind your back and you went through my mailbox."

I shook my head, "Ash, this isn't going to work. How are we supposed to be together when we can't even be honest with each other?"

He bit his lip, analyzing what I'd just said. "I don't know, ok? Maybe you're right, maybe we should just break up. Because it's pretty obvious that that's the only thing that's going to make you happy." he snapped.

I felt the tension rising between us, and kept my mouth shut, not wanting to make Ash any angrier. Then I remembered what Cole told me the other day. I had to make a choice. And I knew who I was going to choose now.

"Cole's leaving in a week." I stated. "So I have to make a choice." Ash stayed silent, looking up at me with an unreadable expression on his face. "I choose Cole."

His lower lip quivered and he trembled a bit. "No," he choked out.

"You even agreed that things weren't working between us, so I choose Cole. I just want a fresh start and with Cole, that's what I'll get."

"Why can't you and I just start over? Why can't we have a fresh start?" he plead.

"We've already been through too much to forget about. We can't pretend like nothing happened between us. Face it Ash, we took things too quick. And now there's damage beyond repair. I think I'd be happier with Cole."

I knew that my last words are what hurt him the most, but I needed him to know that we were truly over. No more second chances, no more forgiveness. I was done with that. And it would be much easier to end things now than it would to end things later, when we got even deeper into our relationship.

"We've done this before, Evalynne. We've said that things were over before, but we always end up back together. Doesn't that mean anything to you? We were meant to be together!" he cried.

I shook my head, unable to look him in the eye. I had to leave. I just had to turn around and walk away from him. But there was something inside of me that was stopping me. There was something holding me back.

"I know what you did to our tree." he murmured softly.

At first I didn't know what he was talking about, but then I remembered that day when I scraped away the carving. It was the same day as the car accident. The same day I tried to kill myself. And all because of Ash.

That's when I realized that Cole was right. Ash really did have me wrapped around his finger. Every move I made was revolved around him. And whenever I did something wrong or something to upset him, I ended up feeling bad and going back to him. My entire life was set around Ash.

The thought of this made me angry. I didn't want to be some clingy girlfriend, whose main priority was her boyfriend. I've lost so much because of Ash, sacrificed so much just for him. Everything that ever meant anything to me was now gone. And I would never be able to have it back.

So I snapped. "Ash, for as long as we've been together, I've been absolutely miserable. And I'm not going to drop anything else for you! Because of you, I lost Kristy, I lost my self-control, I lost my dignity, I lost my self-respect. I'm not even myself anymore. And yes, I did scrape away the carving on our tree. But do you know why?"

When he didn't answer me, I continued. "I did it because it didn't mean anything to me anymore! I knew that we weren't going to be together forever. And I knew that EC+AM=4ever was just something that you used for your own self-confidence. Because deep down, you knew that we wouldn't last. And I've had enough. I'm not going to keep pretending that we're this perfect couple when we're not."

"But we could be." he whispered. "Everyone I've ever loved has left me. I don't want you to do the same thing."

"I'm not your counselor, I'm not your psychiatrist. So I don't have to help you sort out all of your issues." I said, repeating what Cole had told me before. I knew it was harsh, but if I was sweet and subtle about this, he would never know how raged I really was. "You keep on saying stuff like this to make me feel bad for you, but it's not going to work this time. You've got me wrapped around your finger and I'm tired of it."

"Evalynne, you have me wrapped around your finger!" he cried. "You're the one who keeps breaking up with me and then getting back together with me! You're the one who keeps playing with my emotions! You're the one who keeps hurting me."

It was ironic really. All this time I'd thought that Ash was all high and mighty, having this power over me. But Ash felt the exact same way about me. That didn't change anything though. I was still going to break up with him.

"Well I'm sorry that you feel that way, but you're not the only one. I've been feeling the exact same way, so don't be feeling all sorry for yourself."

"I never said that I felt sorry for myself. I've done that before and I know that it doesn't help. In fact, it just makes things ten times worse. Believe me, I know that."

"Yeah, so do I. And I also know how bad it feels when someone makes you feel sorry for them. Which is exactly what's been making me come back to you all this time."

He looked away from me, an ashamed expression on his face. He didn't say any more, so I didn't either. Instead, I turned on my heel and walked away.

When I arrived back at my own house, I grabbed my cell phone out of my pocket and dialed Cole's number in.

"Hello," he picked up.

"I choose you." I said.

"Are you serious?" he cried, his voice filled with joy.

"Yep," I replied, hoping that this was the right decision. "I have to go now, but I just wanted to let you know that."

"Ok, I'll talk to you later?"



"Bye," Then I hung up.

The author's comments:
Cole or Ash? Apparently, Evalynne's made her decision. Who do you think she'll end up with in the end though?

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This article has 11 comments.

Catiestar GOLD said...
on Jun. 30 2011 at 12:34 am
Catiestar GOLD, Clayton, New Jersey
17 articles 0 photos 54 comments

Favorite Quote:
You be the anchor that keeps my feet on the ground, I'll be the wings that keep your heart in the clouds <3

It's a good thing I'm addicted to cheese:D I really do love this story, but it's apparent that you've practiced a lot since you wrote it, and it could be even better if you went back to revise it with the skill you've developed:)

Addiekins said...
on Sep. 3 2010 at 3:41 pm
Addiekins, Ukiah, California
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Favorite Quote:
Are you there? I cannot hear what you say in response. Or maybe the silence is just you listening

HAHAHA! I love how she told him that she chose him!!! "I chose you. Bye." That was funny. Shes obviously torn up if she didnt want to atleast celebrate with the guy she chose over the guy she loved.

on Jul. 15 2010 at 4:10 pm
pinkypromise23 PLATINUM, Cranston, Rhode Island
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i know that you believe you understand what you think i said, but im not sure you realize that what you heard is not what i meant.

lol i agree.

on Jul. 6 2010 at 1:26 pm
madmadie22 BRONZE, Wichita, Kansas
2 articles 0 photos 28 comments

Favorite Quote:
"It is quite unnerving to be proven wrong, particularly when you are really right and the person proving you wrong is proving himself wrongly right. Right?" Lemony Snicket, The Reptile Room

OMG!! I love this story. It's a bit rushed (and a tad cheesy (: )  but I love it!  What I think is that Evalyn should dump the both of them (even though I know you already wrote the rest of the story) and quit of love for awhile.  Take some yoga/meditation classes and take time to find the peace within her self.  :)  LOL!

on Apr. 23 2010 at 5:06 pm
Lost-In-Life GOLD, Whitby, Other
11 articles 0 photos 299 comments

Favorite Quote:
It's never to late, if it weren't for the last minute many things would never get done!

That makes sense, it actually ties it all together, Great!

on Apr. 17 2010 at 6:46 pm
TeamJacobArchuleta ELITE, Chicago, Illinois
183 articles 7 photos 484 comments

Favorite Quote:
He's the one I call in the middle of the night. He's the one who makes everything alright. He loves me with no regret...I just haven't found him yet.

yeah i guess her mom still wants to know, but evalynne's gotten so wrapped up in her own love life that she's pretty much shut everyone else out, thats why kristy got so mad at her lol at least thats what i was trying to symbolize in the story lol :)

on Apr. 17 2010 at 11:50 am
Lost-In-Life GOLD, Whitby, Other
11 articles 0 photos 299 comments

Favorite Quote:
It's never to late, if it weren't for the last minute many things would never get done!

Wow! Great, luv it! I'm just wondering one thing. Before in your story her parents and family were a big part, and now you don't ever hear about them. Doesn't her mom still want to know what's happening in her daughters life?

on Mar. 19 2010 at 9:34 am
esmeralda BRONZE, Oak Park, Illinois
2 articles 0 photos 7 comments

Favorite Quote:
"you know your inlove when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams." dr suess "you are my glue without you, id be nothing but broken peices" miley cyrus
"when i saw yo i fell inlove, and you smiled because you knew"

seriously cant stand evanlyne!! like at all

all she is is a teen that has no idea what ti do

and if she thinks her and ash were moving too fast all she had to do was slow it down herself

and cole he like basically tried to get into her pants

twiwrite GOLD said...
on Feb. 24 2010 at 2:28 pm
twiwrite GOLD, Modesto, California
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none :P


on Feb. 12 2010 at 5:19 pm
JohnnyDeppLover123 DIAMOND, Holyoke, Massachusetts
54 articles 0 photos 146 comments

Favorite Quote:
Be not afraid of greatness: some are born great, some achieve greatness, and some have greatness thrust upon them.
William Shakespeare

Omg! I'm sorry i know Ash has been kinda of a jerk but Cole's just messing with her! i mean come on... and Ash really does love her...I can't believe her! Sorry but I HATE all of your characters so no team for me!

on Feb. 10 2010 at 12:47 pm
MarinaOreo GOLD, King Of Prussia, Pennsylvania
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"Your soul is the whole world" -Siddhartha by Hermann Hesse

NO!!! Why is she doing this!!