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Still Here

November 6, 2008
By Anonymous

"I was fine. That was, until

it happened.

It was the beginning of my sophmore year. I was on my way to homeroom when I saw him. I stopped dead in my tracks. I tried to remember how to breathe when the bell rung. He sprinted towards the closest classroom. I ran into my class, and sulked to the back, grabbing a sharp edged ruler on the way. I sat down and the teacher started his lecture. I let my thoughts drown out his droning voice. I slipped my arm under the desk, scrunched up my sleeve, and put the cold, sharp blade to my skin...
I walked out of the classroom and found him staring at me. Was that disgust in his eyes? The halls cleared, and he practically pinned me to the wall. His overpowering grip yanked out my wrist. He almost tore my sleeve off. He yelled at me. "WHAT THE HELL ARE THESE?!" He pointed to the newly swollen slits on my wrists. He shoved it away, and proceeded down the hallway.

And that's when I woke up."

My therapist nodded stiffly and looked up. "Is this dream what really happened?" I squinted at her. I hated when she talked about my boyfriend- also known as "him"- found my "doings". He told my parents and now I'm stuck here, in a mental hospital.
I remember the day he came to say goodbye. I was sitting on the stairwell begging, screaming, crying for him not to go....
But he did. Maybe thats why I'm still here. Spending my parent's money, not making "progress".
My therapist stood up and called the nurses. I didn't even realize I was having another "meltdown".
Maybe I would be fine.

If it weren't for


The author's comments:
I like to write and draw. Not that unusual or anything, but I think it really makes me, er, me. I don't know if my works stink, or anything, but I don't know, some things are meant to be read.

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on Aug. 6 2020 at 1:44 pm
FirstSteps5000 SILVER, Bethesda, Maryland
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Favorite Quote:
"If you reach for the stars, you'll just get the stars. Reach for the heavens and you get the stars thrown in." - unknown
"These aren't just stories,"... …"They're whole kingdoms. They're worlds. They're perspectives and opinions you can't offer, from lives you haven't lived." - The Isle of the Lost
"When someone does something hurtful, they have to admit it... [t]hen they have to be punished for it. And maybe then, if they apologize and change, maybe -maybe- *then* they get forgiven." - The One and Only Bob

Very relatable. Well written.

on Oct. 11 2018 at 8:26 am
Hermione-Granger BRONZE, Bethel Park, Pennsylvania
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Great story

on Sep. 17 2015 at 9:32 pm
monikitty12 PLATINUM, New York, New York
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Favorite Quote:
Don't cry because its over. Smile because it happened.

Wow. You and I have somewhat similar lifystyles. Finally found someone whom I can relate to. I understand why you are anonymous, sometimes I also want to be anonymous. But sometimes, its best to face your enemy (him) and push through. Although the (him) that im facing isnt my boyfriend, I understand where you are coming from. I know you can make it through. There are other great people out there!! :)

catycat2015 said...
on May. 29 2015 at 12:12 pm
catycat2015, Miamisburg, Ohio
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Need to write more!

on Dec. 20 2014 at 2:49 pm
Stephanie_Langham BRONZE, Abingdon, Other
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Favorite Quote:
"Words have the power to create and destroy."
"Give me a pen and paper and watch me turn the world upside down."

I really like this. It's short but good. You seem like a great author! :)