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Glass Half Full

March 31, 2021
By NotLuci BRONZE, Madison, Wisconsin
NotLuci BRONZE, Madison, Wisconsin
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Everything I do in the eye of my friends

my family,

the public,

it makes me seem like a girl

made of bricks,

made of stone,

made strong.

 

Everything they say-

my friends,

my family,

the public,

it turns the

brick into wheat,

stone into cardboard,

strong into weak.

 

Every day I wonder if today will be the day I

fall apart

break in pieces

lose control,

Every day I wonder if today will be the day I

take one too many Advil,

cut my wrist a bit too hard,

jump off that new bridge.

 

Every night I tell myself

I'm strong,

I'm made of brick,

I'm OK.

Every night I tell myself

I'm worthless,

I'm stupid,

I'm not enough.

 

Yet with every new day

I put on a face

of a girl made of bricks,

of stone,

strong.

With every new day

I put on a face

of a girl who's fine,

who's OK,

who doesn't need help.


The author's comments:

My mental health hasn't been a struggle for too long now, but recently I've found it to be way worse than it's ever been before. Literally, no one knows about this. Not even my therapist.


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on Apr. 16 at 6:16 pm
Luka_Roi PLATINUM, Edmond, Oklahoma
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Favorite Quote:
"When we're born we cry, because we feel the pain of living for the first time."- Alice C.

"Always be yourself... Unless you can be Batman. Be Batman."- Andy Biersack

"No matter how hard you try, you can never tame a wild spirit!"- CC

"I am not a monster, I am but a man."- Ronnie Radke

"Suicide is not cowardly! I'll tell you what's cowardly... treating someone so badly that they want to take their own life!"- Ashley Purdy

"I'm an artist and I make art-arty-art-art!"- Andy Biersack

"I'm TOP 'Stressed Out' what does that mean? I'm a rap fiend with a bad lead..."- NF

"I GOT A JAR OF DIRT AND GUESS WHAT'S INSIDE IT!!!"- Johnny Depp

@NotLuci I understand how you feel. I've been struggling for over Five years after 7+ years of mental, physical, and verbal abuse... even when you feel weak, know that you are strong for being here.

NotLuci BRONZE said...
on Apr. 16 at 12:30 am
NotLuci BRONZE, Madison, Wisconsin
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For everyone who has thoughts of self harm or k!lling yourself, I have a couple tips. What I do is on a good day, I write down some reasons to stay alive. On a bad day, I read it, and add to it. I now have about 6 pages of reasons to stay alive. :)