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I can only be, who I was meant to be

November 15, 2014
By EmilytheBelleofA. DIAMOND, Athens, Georgia
EmilytheBelleofA. DIAMOND, Athens, Georgia
81 articles 5 photos 1486 comments

Favorite Quote:
To love is to be vulnerable; Triumph is born out of struggle; We notice shadows most when they stand alone in the midst of overwhelming light.


I hear

the pitter patter
of my tears
falling down
and singing
a bittersweet song,
from the ground;
like the rain
raining down on me.

Her sobs
shake
as they fly out,
like lightning
flashes across
the sky
on dark storm.

 

Her breaths
rattle
as they draw in
while she draws
her inhales
on her piece
of paper.

 

She exhales
her exhalations,
like the waves
that come in
like they were
blown in from a force;
just like the wind
that puffs out
its tired breaths.

 

She remembers
the lies
that you told her,
just like the stained glass
shining from a distance;
her tears
are melted diamonds,
springing up from the ground,
from the ashes.

 

Her tears
are all around her,
in her canvas cloth
and her shoes;
its like they're
small, liquid holes
that have a never-ending
fall to them;
they're like exploded crystals
that cut her heart
and that's why
the blood used to drip.

 

She hid behind
a hat,
stone/wood masks
and strangled/fake smiles
because you gave her
the impression
that she wasn't
good enough;
that she was like
a glass vase
with cracks.

 

Maybe my skin
crackles like the paper
I use;
maybe I am like
a sheet of scars;
but what's wrong with that?
I have scars,
but now they've healed
and have faded.

 

I maybe different,
and I might not
have the same blood
as you do;
it's true.
But this is true, too;
I'm just me;
why can't you accept me,
as me?
Why couldn't you see
that I can only be,
who I was meant to be?


The author's comments:

"Be yourself. Everyone else is taken." -Oscar Wilde

 

I wrote this poem on a day it was raining, and as the rain fell down, I thought of it as the tears that I had cried in the past. As a young girl, I almost, always thought of the rain as tears; as the sky/skies crying. 

 

This poem was inspired by God, by my past, by my struggles, by my pain. My life has started with a 'once upon a time,' but to others my life story isn't a fairy tale. My life has its downs, but I truly think that my story, my life is a fairy-tale story that is my own; that is written by God. 

 

You can only be, who were meant to be. To be honest, this year I now, am becoming who I am meant to be. You can try as hard as you want to be someone else, but you can only be you. Just you. And you being you, is simply phenomenal. You do realize, that no-one will be like you and have the same talents and powers that you have? Maybe there will be some people similar to you, but no-one will ever have the same heart that you have. Be you, my friend. Become you. 

 

Thank you for taking the time to read this. :)


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on Dec. 23 2014 at 8:47 am
EmilytheBelleofA. DIAMOND, Athens, Georgia
81 articles 5 photos 1486 comments

Favorite Quote:
To love is to be vulnerable; Triumph is born out of struggle; We notice shadows most when they stand alone in the midst of overwhelming light.

And for encouraging me too. :)

on Dec. 23 2014 at 8:47 am
EmilytheBelleofA. DIAMOND, Athens, Georgia
81 articles 5 photos 1486 comments

Favorite Quote:
To love is to be vulnerable; Triumph is born out of struggle; We notice shadows most when they stand alone in the midst of overwhelming light.

Aw, thank you, Liv. Thank you for understanding. Also, for commenting! :)

on Dec. 22 2014 at 2:31 pm
Olivia-Atlet ELITE, Dardenne Prairie, Missouri
324 articles 10 photos 1165 comments

Favorite Quote:
"To these the past hath its phantoms,
More real than solid earth;
And to these death does not mean decay,
But only another birth"
- Isabella Banks

This touched me oh so deeply, Emily :) I could feel you struggling to just... let go. We all feel that way at one point or another. A breathtaking write, my pained friend. :)

on Dec. 1 2014 at 9:06 pm
EmilytheBelleofA. DIAMOND, Athens, Georgia
81 articles 5 photos 1486 comments

Favorite Quote:
To love is to be vulnerable; Triumph is born out of struggle; We notice shadows most when they stand alone in the midst of overwhelming light.

Aw, haha; thanks! That means a lot to me, my friend! :) Thank you so much, Renda! :) And also, I will keep writing, haha. :)

on Dec. 1 2014 at 12:03 pm
Princess.Renda GOLD, Travelers Rest, South Carolina
14 articles 0 photos 159 comments

Favorite Quote:
"All the world is made of faith, trust, and pixie dust." --J.M. Barrie, Peter Pan

Babe, seriously, this is amazing!!! Quite a tear jerker as well. MissEmmyD, I really love your work! You never stop amazing me :) Keep writing, my friend :))

on Nov. 27 2014 at 7:42 pm
EmilytheBelleofA. DIAMOND, Athens, Georgia
81 articles 5 photos 1486 comments

Favorite Quote:
To love is to be vulnerable; Triumph is born out of struggle; We notice shadows most when they stand alone in the midst of overwhelming light.

You're absolutely, welcome.. :) You are a wonderful and talented and beautiful writer and person who has a lot of talent and greatness and light and beauty. I am honored that I know you as a writer and as a friend for you an=bsolutely, wonderful and amazing. Tjank you for telling me and keeping me posted on the story! :)

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on Nov. 27 2014 at 1:27 pm
Onavae, Okota, Other
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TeenInk.com/fiction/romance/article/p635e0fd0bdf1663e/To-kiss-the-decking-king/ say hello to a happy ending.  Thanks so much for your support.  You've really given me much confidence as a writer.  I never thought I could finish something this long. Your comments really, uh...drove me. Thank you. 

on Nov. 25 2014 at 9:22 am
EmilytheBelleofA. DIAMOND, Athens, Georgia
81 articles 5 photos 1486 comments

Favorite Quote:
To love is to be vulnerable; Triumph is born out of struggle; We notice shadows most when they stand alone in the midst of overwhelming light.

Hanban12, thank you so much for commenting and telling your thoughts about my poem and encouraging me. It means a lot. I'm also glad that the emotion was there, I wasn't sure if the emotion was there, but now I'm glad to hear that the emotion is there. Also, the one favorite part of yours is also my favorite part, too. :) I'm so glad you enjoyed it and understood the message. Thank you so much, again! :)     Nightingale,  I'm so glad that you enjoye this poem! And that you were able to connect to it and undertsnad. Also, exactly. If people don't love you for who you are then they don't really know you, and yes it's their problem, haha. You're welcome! Thank you for commenting and telling me your thoughts on my poem and for encouraging me! Thank you, again! :)

on Nov. 25 2014 at 1:02 am
Nightingale74 PLATINUM, Beavercreek, Ohio
46 articles 0 photos 152 comments

Favorite Quote:
"When you need something to believe in, believe in yourself."
"A poem unwritten is only a thought; unshared, unsaid..."

I really really loved this poem...it was so powerful and inspiring...I'm in awe! It's so beautifully and eloquently worded (as your poems always are!), and it's so full of emotion!! I've also noticed that you tend to use the symbol of a mask in quite a few of your poems...I like it though! I think masks are such wonderful themes and symbols in poetry, there's a lot to go off of! And you always use them so wonderfully!! ;) But I also really liked the theme of this poem...I was able to really connect with it, because I too am a firm believer in being who I am meant to be. If people can't love me for who I am, then that's their problem. Thank you so much for posting this!!! :D I loved it so much and you did such a wonderful job!!!! :)

Hanban12 ELITE said...
on Nov. 24 2014 at 7:50 pm
Hanban12 ELITE, Lake Worth, Florida
133 articles 7 photos 631 comments

Favorite Quote:
"If you have built castles in the air, your work need not be lost; that is where they should be. Now put foundations under them."
Henry David Thoreau

"I fell in love the way you fall asleep; slowly, and then all at once."
John Green

Such a powerful poem. Lovely and extremely well said. I love the message behind this piece, but I especially love the words that curtain over it. "Maybe my skin/crackles like the paper/I use;/maybe I am like/a sheet of scars;/but what's wrong with that?" You can just feel the raw emotion in every word, every phrase. Keep it up, Ms. Emily! You're a very, very talented writer :)