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Alone.

May 4, 2021
By SparrowSun ELITE, X, Vermont
SparrowSun ELITE, X, Vermont
159 articles 22 photos 913 comments

Favorite Quote:
"It Will Be Good." (complicated semi-spiritual emotional story.)
And the words I say most often: "Where was I?"
"I just switched 50 things to anonymus and it doesnt even make a diff- why was i writing this again? where was i? hm.... oh well."


Blackest night falls hard

The ebony sky mocks me

Alone in the dark

 

Sleepy moon glows

Faint, tired, a small comfort

It doesn't mend me

 

Stars twinkle, laughing

Cruel, tauntingly together

Just leave me alone

 

Alone. Always. So?

No one cares, I shouldn't care

Right? Destined outsider.

 

So perfect grades, skills

Friends don't matter. Arent success.

Why bother with them?

 

Why? Why? Why? Why? Why?

A chant goes up in my mind.

A whirlwind of whys

 

A whirlwind of cries

Stop! tears are weak, helpless, pains.

Only let the sky cry

 

Not for me, never me

For those who belong, matter

Not for me, never me

 

The sun may cry, gold

Golden tears of warmth, give life

Tears are not for me

 

The moon may cry, silver

Beams casting light, false comfort

Comfort to belongers

 

I may not cry, ever

Doesn't accomplish anything

Doesn't pave success

 

One day, I'll be glad

I didn't belong with reason

When I rise above

 

I'll make it then

Belongers won't

And then I'll belong

 

With people like me

Right? I'll belong. Someday.

Yes. I really hope so.

 

It can't be a

False promise under the moon

Whispered false comfort

 

I am not a lark

caged to sing, not a sparrow

To never fly free

 

Right?


The author's comments:

right, this is going to be anonymous. it's not about me, none of my poems ever are, but the tone feels stuck up and I'm not. but as an outsider, I can partially relate(tho as always, I don't understand my own writing). i feel alone, sometimes, but Im maybe making a friend and such.


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on Jun. 18 at 11:21 pm
SparrowSun ELITE, X, Vermont
159 articles 22 photos 913 comments

Favorite Quote:
"It Will Be Good." (complicated semi-spiritual emotional story.)
And the words I say most often: "Where was I?"
"I just switched 50 things to anonymus and it doesnt even make a diff- why was i writing this again? where was i? hm.... oh well."

(to clarify i wrote it. maybe i'll switch it to public since I related a couple days ago.

on Jun. 16 at 9:16 pm
SparrowSun ELITE, X, Vermont
159 articles 22 photos 913 comments

Favorite Quote:
"It Will Be Good." (complicated semi-spiritual emotional story.)
And the words I say most often: "Where was I?"
"I just switched 50 things to anonymus and it doesnt even make a diff- why was i writing this again? where was i? hm.... oh well."

month later and i relate. turns out it was good for something. it made me smile even tho I was crying and lonly.