Slap paint onto a canvas and watch the colors interact with one another. I believe in blank canvases and  new beginnings, I believe in paint thinners and righting your mistakes.
Everyone of us has a past, does that demand how we act in the future? When I was a child my father was into drugs and got abusive when he was high. I wasn’t very old when my parents split, and I grew up in a, quote unquote “broken family”. That doesn’t mean that I, as a person, am broken, I have a future, I have a choice.  My family is not broken, paint was added to my canvas that no longer belongs. That's the joy of paint thinners, my past can be reworked and the mistakes that were made could be fixed. I can build my canvas into a piece that describes me, not where I have been. I have met people in my life that no longer fit. Many years ago I had a friend. She was one of my best friends, a real bright splash of color and now she is gone. She is no longer in my life. When I moved to this school no one knew me. I had the chance to start anew. My life and my past meant nothing to these people, they didn’t know me, they didn’t care. And it is an amazing feeling, having the chance to start new, be the me that I had always wanted to be. Without my past getting in the way.
That being said, is starting anew always the best choice to make? If something goes wrong or I don’t like how I’m living my life does that just mean I should get up and move to where no one knows me? Not at all. Moving sucks. Starting new sucks. It’s a paradox. The chance to start new and be who you want to be is amazing, but going about that process, being a new you, working everyday to make this image about yourself is hard. Is it worth it? Who is to tell you that is is? Or that it isn’t? I cannot define what is worth it to you, just as you cannot define what is worth it to me.
Here is another question. Do you have to leave to start again? Can you change who you are where you are? I believe that you can. To me that is the joy of paint thinners. I can strip away layers of paint that no longer fit in my life.
As you add paint to one corner, strip paint in another, do you ever step back and see the whole? Would it be important too? Your painting is huge. Do you know what will happen to the rest of the painting if you strip paint here, or add paint there? Does one section of your life affect others? If it does, should it? Yes I know lots of questions. Think about it this way, I am painting my canvas and helping you paint yours with each question that I ask you. I ask them of myself, though I sure as hell don’t have the answers. So I do what everyone else is doing, whether they know it or not. I add a stroke here, and strip some paint there. Maybe one day I’ll know what I’m doing.