I don’t want to be an ass, but this new thing in my life sucks. I let it in, thinking it would only stay for a day or two. Turns out, it was here to stay. The more time I spend with it, the more I want to just end it all. It always have a negative attitude, always points out my flaws. It never says sorry. It has no remorse for what it says or does. It watches me cry. It listens to me beg for it to stop, but it won’t.  It has no regret. No guilty feelings for making me feel like crap. Ongoing literal crap. It keeps me up at night. It doesn’t even allow me to eat most times. It pounds on my head, giving me aches and pains. It knots my stomach. I feel anxious like I need to puke. ALL THE TIME. It hurts me, making me feel like the guilty one. I’m tired of it. The only way it can go away is if I go away. I’m ready to go away. Depression wins.