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I Love You Enough to Say Goodbye

December 19, 2009
By sarajean1018 SILVER, Shelby Twp, Michigan
sarajean1018 SILVER, Shelby Twp, Michigan
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Favorite Quote:
"I am no man!" Eowyn (Miranda Otto) Lord of the Rings: Return of the King

“Sam!!” I screamed, happily, as he pushed me on the swing. He knew I loved it. The thrill of being high up in the air. The wind beneath me. I felt like a bird. Free to go where ever I wanted to. Free from all my problems.

But one false move changed everything.

As the swing pulled back, my hand slipped from the cold, metal chain holding the swing to the wooden pole above me. My body fell forward, landing on wood chips, that cut into my skin. My head was spinning. Sam was calling me. I couldn’t reply. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t manage to get my voice to move past my lips. It was frozen there.

“Cherri, oh God, can you hear me?” Sam gently shook me, panic in his voice. I tried to lift my arm. I couldn’t. Not even a finger. “Please, Cherri, just say something.” He was sobbing now. My heart ached to hear him like that. I wanted to lift my head and tell him I was fine. But I knew in my heart I wasn’t. “Hello? Yeah, I’m at the park with my girlfriend. She fell off the swing and she’s not moving or anything.” He told someone. From his voice, I could tell it was 911. I had never heard him so freaked out. “Runaway Park. Yeah. Okay, please hurry.” Sam turned his attention back to me. “Cherri, I’m going to stay with you, okay? I won’t leave you.” Suddenly, my body was rolled over and my head was on his lap. “I won’t ever leave you.” He promised. And I was happy.

Too bad I couldn’t show it.


“Oh, my poor baby.” My mother’s voice whispered, barely audible. “How could he do this to you?” He? Who was he? The doctor? What did he do? Do I still have arms? I couldn’t move them before. Maybe they were amputated.

“Mom.” I mumbled, opening my eyes. The bright light from the room blinded me. “Mom?” I said, again. I heard her gasp and she stroked my face, smiling ear to ear.

“Cherri, baby.” She breathed, holding my face. “I’m so glad you’re okay. I’m so glad.” Tears streamed down her face. “I didn’t know if you were going to wake up. You had an awful concussion.” She clutched me to her. I couldn’t breathe, but that was okay. I was with my mother, the person I could depend on. Her familiar scent calmed me down immediately. Sweet pea shampoo with the hint of fresh laundry. That was my mother.

“Mom, where’s Sam? Is he okay?” Her face got cold and her grip loosened on me. “He promised not to leave me.”

“He’s fine. I sent him away. He wasn’t the one who got hurt, now was he?” She answered, bitterly.

“I need to see him.” I demanded, struggling to get out of bed. “Please get him for me.”

“No.” Her voice was monotone. I had never seen her this way before.

“Mom!!” I cried, begging her. “Please! I need to see him! He needs to know I’m okay!”

“He hurt you. You’ll never see him again.” Mom promised. I sank back into my pillow, in shock. No Sam? Ever?

“But Mom-” I tried to speak. But she brushed it off, like it was worthless.

“Cherri, I have to go. I have to call your father.” Mom got up, and left, leaving me alone.

How could she do this to me? A life without Sam? That was unthinkable. That was crazy. That would never happen.

I love him. And I always have. Ever since I first saw him, I knew he’d be the one. She just can’t take him away from me.

“Sam.” I whimpered, my face in my pillow, tears pouring out. Then, it hit me. My phone.

It was sitting on the table next to me. Hurriedly, I picked it up and pressed, and hit send. Speed dial was one of my favorite things.

“Hello?” He answered, my heart skipping a beat. My Sam.

“Sam, I’m okay.” I told him, smiling. “How are you?”

“Fine.” He said, coldly. “Listen, I have to-”

“Can you meet me? At the park?” I begged. He sharply took a breath in. “Please? I need to see you.”

“Okay.” He caved. “Meet you in ten.” And he hung up.

Now, I just have to sneak out of the hospital.

My foot steps halted under at the swing set I was at hours before. I took a deep breath in as I looked at Sam under the maple tree.

Rain water dripped off his face. His green eyes gazed into mine, and I knew we would have to be okay. We had to be.

I ran over to the shelter of the tree. It was pouring pretty bad and my clothes were soaked through. HIs brown hair was wet and matted, but he still looked adorable.
“Sam.” I caressed his face with my hands. “I missed you.” ?
“I missed you too, Cherri Pie.” He smiled, teasing me, his hand playing with my hair. “I’m glad you’re okay.” He leaned down, pressing his familiar lips to mine. I smiled, and kissed him back. This was how it was supposed to be. ?
“Mom says I can’t be with you anymore.” I told him, pulling away. ?
“I know. She yelled that at me when she got to the hospital.” Sam sighed, not letting go of me. “Maybe she’s right.” My mouth dropped.

“That’s the last thing I want.” I promised him. “I love you.” He took my hand and kissed it. ?
“I love you too. That’s why we need to listen to your Mom.” He retreated from me, my hands in the now empty air. “You have a chance at being someone. I don’t. And she’s known since the beginning.” I took a step back, in shock.

“Why are you saying this?” I whispered, my heart breaking. ?

“Cherri, I love you enough to let you go.” His eyes filled with tears. “Please, you have a chance. I hurt you too much.”

“This wasn’t your fault.” I assured him, coming towards him. “This wasn’t your fault.” I repeated, falling into his arms.

“Please. You’ll be an award winning doctor. My future is in my Uncle’s mechanic shop.” He took a deep breath and stepped back, now against the trunk of the tree. “This was my fault. I should have-” He broke off. “You deserve more than me.” He barely whispered. I stood there, in shock. Sam kissed my forehead. “Good bye, Cherri.” And he turned away, not looking back.

I just watched him, as his footsteps faded away and he left my sight, tears pouring out of my eyes.

Goodbye, Sam.

The author's comments:
This is what I got when I sat at the computer. I didn't want the same sappy romance with a happy ending. Sure, its sad but I think it turned out pretty good.

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This article has 5 comments.

gabby223 said...
on Jan. 19 2010 at 6:53 pm
Holy moly!

I love love love this Sara! Chur the best at writing! I literally cried...I'm in love with chur stories and how you can make me cry muh heart out! can't wait to hear more!

Jeannette S. said...
on Jan. 16 2010 at 10:30 am
You did a great job, very sad, I cant wait to read more. 5 stars!!!!

Xx.Ale.xX said...
on Jan. 15 2010 at 11:16 am
well, i'll give you 10 bucks if you guess who i am Sara (: haha

well first of all, amazing! i loved it, this should be turn into on of your fictions! cuz, i want to read more!

poor girl, there future shouldnt get between them!

and thank you Sara, this story just openned my eyes.

all this time, every time that i'm in the edge of falling in love, i check there future, if the chance that they have in there future is maybe just working as a mechanic, i break my own little heart...

and now that i'm really falling head over heals for this guy, he doesnt actually have a bright future neither...

i'm debating with myself if i should continue with him, or just break my heart again...

but now, i'm young, i can help them achive there long lost goals... help them dream.

bcuz to achive goals, first you have to dream ;)

on Jan. 14 2010 at 9:35 pm
Aww oh my goodness..this was so sad.

But ur writing is incredible!

Keep up the amazing work!



mandy007 said...
on Jan. 14 2010 at 6:21 pm
I love it!

It was sad but amazing!!!