I’m home from school. Emotions flying through my every pore. Sad, angry, happy, confused. I run. I have about 20 seconds. Running up the steps. Slam my door.

15 seconds…

Turn off the lights turn on the fan to cool down my room. Pull up my hoodie. Take off my shoes.

7 seconds…

Dive. I bury my face into my pillow.

2 seconds…

Tears.
I cry for about 30 minutes then just lay in bed. The sun starts to set. I lay there motionless. In mid-dream. Silence.

Sydney get up you have homework and you need to bath and eat.

No. stay. Cover yourself in the blankets. You don’t need to do homework or eat. Your to fat already!

I listen to the second voice in my head.

Good girl.