Once I could finally open my eyes I saw flashing lights, and heard loud sirens going off. It was hard for me to breathe and I couldn’t really comprehend what was going on. I was looking around trying to find my mom. She was laying on a dirty stretcher. I felt my eyes start to swell, and felt a lump in my throat. I tried to get up, I couldn’t. It’s like my body was paralyzed. I struggled to grab onto something to pull myself up, once I finally got the strength to get up I dragged myself over to my mom.

    “Mom! Mom, please can you hear me?! Please mom open your eyes! Move! Do something so I know you're okay! I continued to scream and cry, hoping she would respond. I layed my head on her chest and held onto her so tightly. Why did I let myself do this to you. I’m so sorry mom, I’m never going to forgive myself for this. I can’t believe this is actually happening right now. This is a nightmare and I need to wake up. I closed my eyes and thought.
My phone buzzed.
“Hello?”
“Hey Addison, there's this party that chris is having, and he wants me to bring you, he wants to talk. Are you in?”
“Sarah you know my mom isn't going to let me go.”
“So sneak out and I'll come get you, she'll never know.
“Fine but it has to be after midnight.”
“Okay, be ready by like 1:45 then.” When we hung up it was ten o’clock so I took a bubble bath and then I started to get ready.
“Goodnight mom I love you.” I yelled across the room.
Once she fell asleep I started to get ready. I can't believe I'm doing this, I've never done anything like this before I hope I don't get caught. When Sarah got to my house I snuck out my side door and got in the car. We arrived at the party around two am.
“Hey Addison, I’m glad you can make it, there’s some drinks in the kitchen if you're thirsty you know where they are.”
“Okay, thank you.” When I got into the kitchen I grabbed a cup from the table, poured some alcohol into the cup, then I began to drink it. As it went down my throat I felt it burning and my eyes began to water. After a couple more drinks I began to lose myself.
“I really missed you Chris. Since we broke up I haven’t really been myself and I haven’t stopped thinking about you. Everyone has been getting on my nerves and I only want--”
“I know Addy, I missed you too. That’s why I wanted you to come tonight so we can talk. I haven’t been seeing anyone else but you and I want you to know that so don’t think that anyone else had my attention cause only you do.
“I just hope you mean everything you say because I don’t wanna get hurt again Chris. I--”
“Ad, stop. I know. I know that I’ve hurt you and I know…” Just as he began to go on I saw my mom step pull up in her blue Audi, and I knew it was her because of the headlights.
“Oh my God. Oh my God. I can’t believe this right now, Chris I’m sorry, I gotta go.” After I said that I scattered away. As I walked up to my mom’s car I started biting on my nails and my heart began pounding. I could feel myself getting sweaty and I hadn’t prepared myself for this. I slowly approached the car door,  raised the door handle, and opened the door.
“Addison, I don’t even wanna know why you decided to do this. I’m beyond disappointed in you. HAVE YOU BEEN DRINKING?! Addison I cannot believe you!” As she continued to go on her voice increased and she began to scream at me.
“Give me your phone now!
“Mom no please! I’m sorry I just wanted to talk to Chris!” I begged.
“Addison stop with the excuses. You know Chris is allowed over anytime he wants! Now give me your phone!” She demanded. So I grabbed it out from my pocket and threw it over on her side. She took her eyes off the road for one minute and we crashed. We slipped on a patch of ice, did a 360 spin and landed in a ditch.
Once I opened my eyes the only thing I could remember was my mom and I arguing.
“Mom I’m so sorry this is all my fault. I never should’ve went.”
I knew she wasn’t responsive but I just kept apologizing. I never meant for any of this to happen. I am so selfish. I gently took my mom's hand into mine. I've never felt so broken and empty. The ambulance finally rushed us into a emergency room. For a while I just laid myself down next to my mom until they could figure out what was wrong. I stood up and began to run my fingers across the loud heart monitor.
There was so many things I wish I'd done differently. I love my mom I would never do anything to hurt her. I walked out of the room and went into the bathroom and sat myself on the cold toilet seat and began to sob. There was so many things running through my mind at this point I didn't know what to do. I didn't know what to expect. I can't live without my mom. There's a reason for this to be happening. Everything happens for a reason, right? Maybe this is god's way of telling me that some things need to change or something bad really will happen. This is just the warm up if I don't get myself together and do what I'm supposed to. I cleaned myself up and slowly walked back to the room. I dragged my fingertips across the oily hand rail and just thought to myself. As I turned the corner and walked back into the room. I was not expecting to see what I saw.
“MOM! MOM!” I shouted over and over as I ran over to the bed and grabbed her so tightly.
“Mom! you're okay! Oh my god I love you so much I'm so sorry for what I did it's never going to happen again. I was selfish and I didn't know what I was getting myself into.” I continued to go on sobbing and smiling being so thankful I had my mom. She looked up at me and had a big smile on her face and she tried to say something to me but she would open her mouth and no words would come out.
“You don't have to say anything, just know I am truly sorry for what I've done and I am so thankful that you're okay and I don't have to worry anymore.”  She grabbed my hand and held me tight in her arms.