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If you lived my life

May 1, 2013
By sophia0 BRONZE, Philadelphia, Pennsylvania
sophia0 BRONZE, Philadelphia, Pennsylvania
4 articles 1 photo 3 comments

Favorite Quote:
don't judge a book by its cover


I stared at the blank page before me. Sitting in the back, all alone, I'm a shy kid. Nobody seems to like me, I don't know why.
Is it my looks, the way I talk, or my brain of smartness? Its so complicated. Everday after school, I get beat up for no reason. Why don't they like me? I never did anything to them, did I? Oh how I wish I could just end the pain and suffering. Nobody really seems to understand what I'm going through, its so hard. Do my parents love me, do they hate me? These thoughts rush through my mind all day and night.

Sometimes, I just want to hide. My parents are nice to be most of the time, but other times, they just lose it out on me. What did I do wrong? Seriously! Sombody tell me why. I'm called ugly, stupid, dumb,fat, and a loser. Am I really that kind of person? They don't seem to know me enough. How can I get out of this miserbal life where nobody likes me. I mean, I have some friends, so I guess that cancels out loser, right?

I get good grades in school and on projects, so am I really that stupid, or dumb? Sure I may a little bit chubby, but am I fat? Wy don't they understand my life? I feel so alone, so isolated. Somebody, please hit me right now. Ow!! That actually hurts. I was being sarcastic, you know. Oh, nevermind that.

One day,I will be loved. Sombody will love me for me and forever, I hope.I'm looking foreward to the time when all this pain and suffering will be done away with, all of my shoulder. Oh what a day that would be. I look foreward to live to that day, but I can't. I have no hopes and dreams. Want to know why? Well, its because I'm dead now. Yes, I said it, I'm dead.
Dead as in no longer in existance. I was afraid of people, life, and I had no one to turn to. They all left me deserted. I had to do it.I had to get rid of all the pains I've endured. So I ended it all. You happy now? Do you feel regret over whats happened? Are you willing to take the responsibility over me? Are you willing to make a change and difference in someone elses life for the better? Please do. Don't make that same mistake again. Every life is precious. Now I know.

Take the charge. Be a leader, a hero. Don't let anyone trake their precious life away, like I did. Life is precious, so love it. I'm sure you won't like it when you were put in the same situation as me. Put yourself in my shoe. I may be dead, but I remember. I remember all the hurt you did to me. I'll never forget that. I forgive you, but the hurt is still in my heart.


The author's comments:
This story is about bullying and making a difference in someone's life.

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sophia0 BRONZE said...
on May. 15 2013 at 7:14 pm
sophia0 BRONZE, Philadelphia, Pennsylvania
4 articles 1 photo 3 comments

Favorite Quote:
don't judge a book by its cover

i'm so sorry. i know how much it hurts. You try to forget something in your past, but it keeps coming back at you like its hunting you. thank you

sophia0 BRONZE said...
on May. 15 2013 at 7:13 pm
sophia0 BRONZE, Philadelphia, Pennsylvania
4 articles 1 photo 3 comments

Favorite Quote:
don't judge a book by its cover

thank you dixi. i will continue to write more.

dixi said...
on May. 7 2013 at 5:17 pm
I love this story. It touched my heart so much. I almost cried. Please write more. Looking forward to them.

venus1234 said...
on May. 7 2013 at 5:10 pm
i love this article. i do have dark past in my life. i have tried to forget but it resulted a failure. this article made me cry.

venus1234 said...
on May. 7 2013 at 5:03 pm
i love your article. you have made me cry. i have experienced the pain before. i have never forgot it and it does hurt. i have dark secrets in my past and i try to forget but i can't forget the pain.