Just now I’m thrown from reality 

I held my breath again 

Shaky hands grasp me 

I’m held down by a chain 

One moment I’m okay 

Then… I choked, 

“please, don’t panic” 

I try to tell myself but, 

Other voices disagree 

I can feel it, creeping up on me 

Slowly it rises from its den 

The dizziness, 

The shallow breaths 

Every now and then. 

My heart rate speeds 

It’s going crazy 

“please relax idiot, breath steady” 

They are hunting 

I’m not ready 

My thoughts are pumping 

I’m stressing 

My fear is feeding 

“Don’t panic.” 

“I’m afraid.” 

“Don’t panic, you can do this” 

I’m just giving them time to invade 

I must reminisce 

“Don’t lose control.” 

Slow breaths and happy thoughts 

That is my goal 

Why is this fear forming knots? 

“I’m not going to die, 

not this time.” 

But this is all a lie 

Feeling peace is a crime 

It might seem over 

But, the panic is still here 

At any moment it could takeover 

My heart is still pounding in my ear 

It’s overwhelmingly frustrating 

How panic is still lurking and waiting