I think of what I will have for dinner

I think of what I will watch on my phone

I think of the clothes I will wear to school

Just as I think of you

My mind is consumed by What Ifs

and If What’s

What if I got a different drink

What if I wore a different shirt

What if I never let you back in my life

If I took a different class, what would my day be like

If I would have worked harder, what more could I have accomplished

If I didn't let you know I cared, what would you do to keep me

Some things are so simple we rule them out subconsciously

Food

Clothes

Classes

Money

But some things are so complex we categorize them into a million questions

I can always wake up tomorrow and wear something different

Listen to a different song

Drink a different drink

Take a different road to school

Park in a different spot

Sit in a different seat

If only this was that easy

If only I could wake up tomorrow and love somebody else

But life has chosen you

The worst possible candidate

And now I'm stuck thinking

Of What Ifs and If What’s