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Doubt

June 14, 2024
By King_KDA ELITE, Burlington, Washington
King_KDA ELITE, Burlington, Washington
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Favorite Quote:
"Numquam finitur, donec vita finiatur."
- K. D'Angelo Alexander


Thoughts heavy, burdened by the stress

Of not knowing what choice is best

Listen to my heart, or my head?

Contemplating, while in bed


Sleep: something that I need more of

It’s hard to think, when one’s in love

Should I invest in myself

Would loving again actually help?


Or should I continue with my

Monotonous, dreary life


Doubt


Slowly consuming my mind

I no longer have much time


Thoughts quicken

   

    Misplaced, out


Of    sorts,   incoherent


 Staccato  score


Doubt, doubt, doubt, doubt, doubt

Doubt

         Doubt


Life’s not real, and I want out


Except it is, much to my dismay;

Rational thoughts drive me insane

Why do I second-guess myself?

He tells me that I should seek help


But “he” is me, and I am I

Am I deceived with my own eyes?

Is how I perceive the world right?

These thoughts haunt me all through the night


Into the light; sleep at sunrise

Will these dark thoughts be my demise

I tell myself that I don’t care

But these lies just hide despair


I should not have written this;

No one cares, no one will miss

Me when I finally ascend

I know I’ll just fall down again


No doubt


The author's comments:

A discordant poem construing the experiences of someone suffering from doubt. Having made mistakes in the past, and having a shot at redemption, the person depicted second-guesses every decision they make, wondering if it is the correct one as he slowly slips into a neurotic state of mind. Hence the broken-up portion in the middle of the poem, which was intended to convey his developing madness, as well as the overall unsettled, disturbed tone of the poem.


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