stressed...for nothin

ballin...with an actuall no reason

injuring...when i was wrong all along


feelin the stupid

are you ready 4 this...

not even friends...what a mistake, feelin the stupid with no body but myself to blame. i cired, i stressed, i marked my body once more. the only difference is i was wrong about him wanting nothing to do with me anymore. he spacifically said "i dont care". never heard him say it beforore, those three words were never there. i should have asked, i should have checked it out. now i have another scar on my body screaming worthless no doubt. when those words came out you can bet i felt worse than you did, but now knowing that everythings better than i thought, all im feelin is the stupid. laughing to myslef as we speak i cant help but think "wow" i cant believe i didnt have the heart and courage to figure all this mess out. its amazing what this guy does and screw cupid, he got my heart in a buddle but did i already let you know how much im really feelin the stupid