Why do I listen to you? Why do I do what you say? And in doing these things, why do I do them voluntarily (?); without hesitation (?); eager, in fact.
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And how is it that I am willing to do, (actually TOO much), for you when I don't even {know} you? I wonder [what. about. you.] attracts me like this? It can't be healthy; But you marvel me, [EXTREMELY].

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But I wonder. I don't {mind} doing these things you ask of me. In fact, I WANT to do them! I WANT you to ask me something! Because I am homesick & you make me feel welcomed. You make me feel like I'm ~HOME~.

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(It means so much to me to be able to serve you.) It makes MY day to be able to see you smile. It makes my night to know [I] made you smile. But you'll probably never know these things.

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But I don't wanna admit it. I don't wanna look stupid. I don't want to seem ~~lovestruck~~ or ~~starstruck~~ or in love. I'm not. I can't be.

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But oh, how I--am.

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