Looking back Smiling,
All the things that we said,
The times that we spent together,
When you told me you loved me,
And you promised we'd be together-forever,
You swore to me in secrecy you would never let me go,
No matter what we'd stand together- I would never have to stand alone,
You gave me your word to protect me,
I remember when you promised you'd never let anything hurt me,
You promised you would never let it happen- no, not again,
You swore I would never be alone- I wouldn't ever again,
But just as always you were wrong once again,
Just like from the start-you always have been,
This seems to be becoming a fatal trend,
And I walk these halls trying to hide and lie,
I try to say I'm doing just fine,
But I know I'm falling apart all alone and I'm pleading behind these silently screaming eyes,
Can't you hear me?
Or see the tears that are streaming?
Or the heart that's bleeding?
You promised you would never hurt me like you did back when,
You made me believe you would be there and wouldn't leave- not even after then end,
But like everything else you once said,
It turned out to be a lie
I try to deny the truth,
But these feelings are real,
They're still here,
Very much alive, and no where near dead,
Now I find,
The pain just won't subside.