They slide down my cheek

Each time I close my heavy eyelids.

The bitter drops are shoved out soundlessly

Uncontrollable sobs, society forbids.

My nose turns a rosy red

As I wipe away the evidence.

I do this carefully, nonchalantly,

As if it makes up for the dreadfulness.

I can’t show them my pain.

I must prove that I can stay strong.

Keep faking smiles and forcing laughs,

Like this, nothing can go wrong.

My eyes are bloodshot

And there is a vacancy inside of me.

Knowing that I am broken down, unwanted.

That I can never become who I long to be.

Depression stings relentlessly,

It can lessen, but it never quite goes away.

I do not think I can go on like this,

Anxiety lurking through each and every day.

I feel forced to conceal my true emotions;

It’s my own fault I live a life full of fears.

It is for this reason that I shield it all,

Only daring to cry silent tears.