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My Mistakes...

September 6, 2009
By Lucy4himnotu ELITE, Richardson, Texas
Lucy4himnotu ELITE, Richardson, Texas
148 articles 0 photos 54 comments

Favorite Quote:
"I am Happy to The Point of Fear" -Ralph Waldo Emmerson


There i was...
I was walking down the isle
Walking towards a man,
With a wonderful, welcoming smile,

I stepped on down the carpet,
Towards the preist I'd known and trusted,
But as i continued down the isle,
My knees suddenly became rusted,

This was a walk to forever...
No turning back after this...
Was this who I wanted to be married to,
The man I wanted to be with?

Then memories started to flash by,
Like a blow straight to my heart,
I heard that laugh, I saw that smile,
And stopped... looked up... and fell apart...

This was not the man,
That eternity could lie with,
This was just a lie,
I couldnt go through with this...

I halted in the isleway...
Tears poured down my face,
I turned, over my shoulder,
And saw him Him sitting there in his place,

Tears streaming down his cheek,
he smiled up at me,
Raised a small bag of rice,
As if to congratulate me,

He was there as my support,
but as I looked at him i knew,
I was marrying the wrong man,
This information, was hardly new,

I ran back up the isle,
To the room in the back of the church,
I'd just lost my fiance's trust,
I knew he'd be so hurt,

I looked at myself in the mirror,
Seeing a mess of mascara and pain,
"What was I thinking..." I whispered
There was nothing but loss, no gain

A quiet "knock knock" on the door,
I shuttered in suprize,
I knocked everything on to the floor,
Just to look up, into his eyes,

He knelt down to help me
As I picked up my mess,
He handed me the last bottle, heart-shaped,
right then, I almost confessed...

"Does he make you happy...?"
He asked me, full of fear,
"Is he the one you want to be with?"
He said, with a fallen tear,

I looked into the eyes,
Of not my fiance,
But the man to whom I knew,
I would spend forever with, someday,

I choked on my own sobbing breath,
And fell into his arms,
"No, I do not love him,"
I prepared myself for his alarm,

but he only held me tighter,
And kissed my head so soft,
"Thank God! I thought you'd go through with it..."
He trembled, for what he'd nearly lost,

I cried so uncontrollably,
That he held me, all my weight,
My happily ever after,
Was gone, but back, in a way,

"How am I going to tell him...?"
I wondered outloud to my love,
But something, a ring, hit the side of my head,
My fiance whispered, "I cannot believe you are the one I dreamed of..."

As he stormed out of the room,
I stared at what I'd done...
My heart broke and I ran after him,
But I woke up... to the love of none.



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on Oct. 19 2011 at 8:59 pm
Lucy4himnotu ELITE, Richardson, Texas
148 articles 0 photos 54 comments

Favorite Quote:
"I am Happy to The Point of Fear" -Ralph Waldo Emmerson

Thank you so much! I have been published once or twice, and would love to continue! I am so glad you like my work :)

mollie96 said...
on Oct. 19 2011 at 7:55 am
I really did. And I love all your other poems too! You are sooooo talented. If you aren't already published in a book, I stongly suggest that you do it. You are an amazing artist and I look forward to reading more of your work.

on Oct. 18 2011 at 9:02 pm
Lucy4himnotu ELITE, Richardson, Texas
148 articles 0 photos 54 comments

Favorite Quote:
"I am Happy to The Point of Fear" -Ralph Waldo Emmerson

Aw! Thank you so much! It is very personal for me, so I am glad you liked it :)

mollie96 said...
on Oct. 18 2011 at 12:18 pm
This poem was sooooo good. It is so personal and deep. If it were a movie, I would totally be bawling! Great job! 20 out of 10!

pinkowl BRONZE said...
on Apr. 25 2011 at 5:46 pm
pinkowl BRONZE, Tyrone, Pennsylvania
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Favorite Quote:
Jeremiah 29:11

awh, this was so cute. it really grabbed my attention. very well written! (:

on Jan. 6 2011 at 9:42 pm
Lucy4himnotu ELITE, Richardson, Texas
148 articles 0 photos 54 comments

Favorite Quote:
"I am Happy to The Point of Fear" -Ralph Waldo Emmerson

I competely agree. People are afraid to say no these days, but the way I think of it is this: if I say no to one guys, that means there is a woman out there that will make him happier than me.

on Jan. 5 2011 at 7:18 am
pnkninja11 BRONZE, Partlow, Virginia
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This is a very touching poem. I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I married the wrong guy. But sometimes it happens in life. People should have the courage to speak up to what they really want.

on Dec. 14 2010 at 3:29 pm
justsmileanddance PLATINUM, Montgomery, Alabama
28 articles 42 photos 67 comments

Favorite Quote:
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
-Albus Dumbledore

this is really good!!!!

on Nov. 26 2010 at 5:38 pm
LeonorEmmalyn, Arroyo Hondo, New Mexico
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Favorite Quote:
"I hold with those who favor fire."
"Two roads diverged in a yellow wood, and I-- I took the one less traveled by, and that has made all the difference."

this is really good!!! amazing!! it is really descriptive and well-written.

on Sep. 20 2010 at 8:59 am
Lucy4himnotu ELITE, Richardson, Texas
148 articles 0 photos 54 comments

Favorite Quote:
"I am Happy to The Point of Fear" -Ralph Waldo Emmerson

Thank you, that is a huge accomplishment for me :)

on Sep. 17 2010 at 7:20 am
SyddTheKidd GOLD, Louisville, Kentucky
11 articles 0 photos 5 comments

Favorite Quote:
"There remains a conflict between past pain and future desire, but pain is swallowed by desire."

Wow..i got chills when i read this.

on Apr. 16 2010 at 4:43 pm
Lucy4himnotu ELITE, Richardson, Texas
148 articles 0 photos 54 comments

Favorite Quote:
"I am Happy to The Point of Fear" -Ralph Waldo Emmerson

:) Thank you so much!

It was a rather haunting dream


Victoriaaa14 said...
on Apr. 16 2010 at 9:22 am
Victoriaaa14, Saugus, Massachusetts
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its really good. i didnt realize it was just a dream. it was really interesting and made me keep on wanting to read. ii like it (:

NotThatGirl said...
on Dec. 29 2009 at 1:33 pm
haha thanks, hope you do well in writing!

on Dec. 25 2009 at 2:49 pm
Lucy4himnotu ELITE, Richardson, Texas
148 articles 0 photos 54 comments

Favorite Quote:
"I am Happy to The Point of Fear" -Ralph Waldo Emmerson

Thank you :) the dream was all to vivid about the emotions.

I like your screen name by the way :) One of my favorite songs is called "Im Not That Girl" from Wicked. Just a random side note

NotThatGirl said...
on Dec. 25 2009 at 2:45 pm
This is one of the best poems I've read on TeenInk, it's so beautiful. You really describe emotions well.

on Dec. 5 2009 at 12:51 pm
Lucy4himnotu ELITE, Richardson, Texas
148 articles 0 photos 54 comments

Favorite Quote:
"I am Happy to The Point of Fear" -Ralph Waldo Emmerson

thank you so much!! Im glad that my tactic worked ;)

basketball15 said...
on Dec. 3 2009 at 9:22 pm
basketball15, Smithville, Tennessee
0 articles 0 photos 1 comment

Favorite Quote:
"live,laugh,love because every minute counts"

I love how you have people thinking one thing then a totally difrent thing happens. This is really good it had me thinking one thing then through me out on a loop. Very good job keep writing!

on Sep. 17 2009 at 10:04 pm
Lucy4himnotu ELITE, Richardson, Texas
148 articles 0 photos 54 comments

Favorite Quote:
"I am Happy to The Point of Fear" -Ralph Waldo Emmerson

thanks so much!

RobEJ BRONZE said...
on Sep. 17 2009 at 4:18 pm
RobEJ BRONZE, Louisville, Kentucky
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Good job! The twists in this ballad make it very compelling.