Not a thing changed

I was still alone

Just less lonely

Somehow I was hoping

For something I wasn’t having

And treating it like it was there

A cruel knife would gently saw through my dreams

I’ll sing myself to sleep

And keep my dreams more close

To me

Reality took its toll on me

Was it purposeful

Did you choose not to care about me?

I’m sorry I sucked at loving you

It’s not what I’m used to.

Guess I wasn’t good enough

Now I can’t even look at you

Without it being taken the wrong way

Was it worth saying what you had to say?

The speech of life is dangerous

We make points

And some friends along the way

I know it hurts you

And you talk about it with everyone

But would you take it out on someone else and be nice to me?

Maybe I’m running in circles circling aimlessly because you made a waste of me

Only that’s just what I tell myself

If I’m honest

You were too good

And I was just being me

Maybe i’m blaming you to protect myself from the truth

That I was no good at loving you