I am from a broken friendship

that I am glad I got out of.

I am from now overthinking, worrying, anxiety

about situations I face.

I am from happiness, excitement, joy

when I find the right people to be with.

I am from not being able to trust anyone

until I become close to them.

I am from overthinking, worrying, anxiety

about what will happen if they don’t want to be my friend.

I am from care, precaution, deep thinking

to be sure not to drive people out.

I am from pushing people away

when I am worried that they might be poison.

I am from fear, anxiety, stress

of not wanting to lose the people that make me happy.

I am from fear, worrying, caring

about what people think of me.

I am from never wanting to be alone

because I fear it might last.

I am from planning, thinking, searching

for things to do with friends to make sure I stay happy and do not overthink.

I am from stress, sandness, overthinking

that still occurs at night when I am alone with nothing to do.

I am from debating

the possible outcomes of a situation.

I am from tears, trembles, terror

when I always assume the worst in a situation.

I am from thoughts, tears, taunts

when I can’t convince myself that it will be fine.

I am from loving someone

when I know I can trust them.

I am from being nice, caring, helpful

to make sure people like me.

I am from trying to be happy, laugh, respectful

to be who I strive to be.

I am from a broken friendship

one that made me who I am.