Today I sat in front of the mirror.

I cannot lie, I hated what I had seen.

Not a normal hate either.

It was like a deep, dark despise of myself

I hated the way I smiled.

I hated the way I frowned.

And when a tear left my eye,

I hated the way I cry.

Then I looked deeper and I realized

I hated the way I laughed

I hated the way I talked

I hated my weirdness,

I hated my talkativeness.

Today I sat in front of the mirror

I screamed at my reflection,

“I don’t wanna be you anymore!”

And I lost myself even more.

I was determined to change.

I masked my tears in makeup,

Disguised my fears in carefully picked outfits,

And turned into a dark, faded shadow.

I just wanted to be accepted.

I tried so hard to be loved by everybody,

For if I could not love myself, somebody would do it for me.

But every time I looked in the mirror,

I still hated everything about me.

Today I sat in front of a mirror.

I screamed at my reflection again,

“I don’t wanna be you anymore!”

And this time, I was heard.

My reflection yelled back at me.

She told me I was beautiful.

She told me I was smart.

She told me I was wonderful.

She told me I was just lost.

She told me I was so much more than what I thought I was.

So now I sit in front of the mirror.

I can't say that I love what I see.

But I can honest to god say,

That I am getting better everyday.