when I hear your name,

Future

little jumping beans wake up in my stomach

my smile becomes strenuous to contain

millions of possible moments dance through my mind, like a film reel

a preview of my life

but, Future

when I hear your name

little droplets of sweat dribble down the corners of my forehead

for a second all air is snatched from me by a quick thief

my frown begins to make an appearance, peeking through that big smile

memories whirl through my mind

a movie of my life

Future,

my heart is beginning to fill

yet it feels like

my heart is beginning to empty

I want to sprint off and retreat back

at the same time

please Future,

give me all you have

yet please don’t take anything of mine away