January is meant to be a new beginning

A Fresh start

A time to try new things

A chance to leave the past in the past

Little did I know

My January would definitely be a time to try new things

Something new, something I’ve never done before

With... you

February is the month of love and friendship

We were somewhere in between

When my heart was hurting over him

You were there

It was complicated

Not a couple, but definitely not friends

Just... Us

March was the month

The month when it was finally supposed to happen

I was nervous

Why wouldn’t I be?

I couldn’t tell what was going through your mind

That night was bliss even though nothing happened

You... close to me

April was the end

The end of spring break

And the end of us

Or so I thought

I was happy for you

Why wouldn’t I be?

Wasn’t that the agreement?

We would be... us until we couldn’t anymore for one reason or another

She was your reason

Us... gone

Last week was a mistake

I wasn’t thinking clearly

I couldn’t find the lie in what you said was the truth

Just the thought of... being us again clouded my mind

It happened again

You told me your reason, was void and null

At least in the beginning

Then you uncovered the veil you had placed over me

How could you?

How could you stomach what you did?

Lying

Deceiving

Hurting

I feel bad...

Not just for her, but

For... you

Eventually I know

This... feeling I have will go away

Eventually she’ll find out what you did

Eventually I’ll be able to forget

But eventually can’t come soon enough