they say decisions are simple. follow your gut they say. but what if your gut is split in two? What if there is not a correct answer. What if you get hurt both ways? Then what? Do what feels right I’m told. But I don’t know what is right. I do not know what is wrong. No matter what path I choose I get stabbed in the heart. If I stay, I live with the guilt of knowing that I am lying to those who love me most in the world. If I leave, my heart will shatter into pieces that he fixed. Pieces that he glued together. pieces that I don’t want to break again. My heart is torn. I don’t know what my gut says. My soul is split. My chest pains. Please. tell me what to do. I’m at a crossroads and I don’t know whether to press the gas or the brake.