Box of Chocolates

I have never gotten a heart-shaped box of chocolates

But if I did

I would love it

I would display it in my room

Love in a red ribbon and praline cream

Leave it on a shelf 

Let it grow 

To green speckled 

Mold if 

I got a box of chocolates

I would love them

Even though I couldn’t eat them

I can’t, I'm 

Allergic to happiness

And healthiness

And true 

Love

Nah, those are appearances

I’m just allergic to chocolates

But if I got a box of chocolates

I pick out the raspberry one

Seedy red slime covered in dark

The last in the box

When I played roulette

With candies

Hoping for Carmel and nuts

To serenade me

Bittersweet hitting

My tongue 

So I’d spit out red seeds

See I watched Forest Gump

And maybe life is a box of chocolates

Maybe it’s just my luck

Maybe I got 

The raspberry one

Maybe its just fruit filling 

Dripping down my wrists

If I got a box of chocolates

It would bleed

Like the only hearts love’s

Ever given me have

Pulling pulsing muscles from my chest

Roughly the size of my fist

Right?

Like loves fist

In my cheek

No, my arms

No, my ribs

So no one 

Can see

If I got a box of chocolates

I'd cry

Cry all tears other gifts have tried 

To dry

Cause roses are thorny

And loves thorns are rosey

Cinnamon rolls, my favorite food

Love knows and pours icing 

To cover up the iron

But if love gave me a heart-shaped box of chocolates

I would cry

Because love has never given me anything

Unless you count the flashbacks and the tremors

And the nightmares and the panic attacks

And the bruises and the scars

I guess I cried then too

Love gives me lots of tears

Saltwater drips

At least

If I got a box of chocolates

The tears would be sweet