Yes, I’m free, but 

I’m not, I’m busy

Busy doing nothing

Thinking about everything

Busy building up enough

Strength to take the shower 

I said I would and text friends 

I’ve been meaning to since 

Yesterday and I can’t forget 

About the three hours of homework

 I have due in two and I can’t forget

About what happened either

What’s happening. (?)

I don’t know at this point

I still haven’t moved but my bed is so

Soft, some sleep would be nice

Since I was up until the sun

Joined me doing the same 

Nothing I’m doing now

My mind is so heavy, so 

Crowded and full

The entirety of the L all 

Packed in my brain 17 trains running 

5 different tracks, all trying 

Not to turn too fast and crash

You know the last 

Time I was on the L 

I was alone

It was my first

And last time alone

I wasn’t scared though

The only thing that scared 

Me was going home

Because once that day was over

I would go home, everything 

Is so much realer at home

Realer with my mom

With my dad

With myself

In my room

Alone

In my room

Right now

It’s real

Right now

I’m alone

Am I scared?

I don’t know 

I don’t remember what 

It feels like to not be or to be

To be or not to be

That is the question

What is the question?

Am I free?

Wait, an hour ago

She asked an hour ago

Now it’s too late

I’m too late

My phone’s about to die anyway

And I’m busy anyway

I have things to do anyway

I have things to do

I have things

I-