From sunrise to sunset

The monster follows me 

From my bedroom to the school hallway 

It won’t leave me alone 

No one else feels or sees it as much as I do             

It's only been following me for a year but it feels like a lifetime 

The monster scares sometimes to the point where it gets hard to breathe

Going blank and forgetting simple things because my mind is too focused on this monster 

People who don’t know about the monster make it worse 

With little snarky comments or forcing me to do things       

Sitting in class where everyone thinks I’m fine as the fake smile on my face shows them that

When really the monster is eating me alive 

While going out and doing all the things I love is now a struggle

Spending my days thinking why me?

Why must you bother me?                         

Laying wide awake at 4 am cause the monster wants to play

Knowing I have to be awake for school in 2 hours 

It doesn’t care, all it wants to do is play 

Wearing that mask all day every day is getting old       

I wish I could show everyone the monster so they know what it's like 

But it won’t show its true self to anyone 

Except for me.