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Internal Turmoil

August 30, 2021
By Rsnail-925 PLATINUM, Boulder, Colorado
Rsnail-925 PLATINUM, Boulder, Colorado
29 articles 7 photos 99 comments

Favorite Quote:
A story has as many versions as it has readers - Winter Of Our Discontent


How to tell people 

The thing they knew about me 

Has changed 

Maybe for better

Maybe for worse 


And I won’t be sorry 

When the arguments 

Throw me over the edge 

Out of their lives 


Feels like the closest friends

Try to understand 

And I know they're supporting me 

But I can’t get out of my head 

That it's wrong 


Every day I think I'm lying

That what I said 

Could be fake 

A scam 


And I’ve done too much damage 

Can’t go back now  

Because I'm a mess

A spillage of gas

With a lit match 

 

Fake smiles when they mention

Inside they don’t know

That I’m shielding my emotions

And it doesn't help


It has become my personality 

I really wish it hadn't 

I don’t know if it's true 

Or if I’m making it up 

I need to know


I’ve always been one way 

Now that's changed 

If only I could know 

With an easier escape


The author's comments:

This is a very honest and emotional piece for me, there wasn't a lot of time or planning put into it. I just got on my computer and wrote what came to mind and this is what you see. I find that writing really helps me express my struggles and triumphs as a person. This poem is a free verse, not a ton of repetition or structure. 

Enjoy 


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on Feb. 26 at 1:30 am
Rsnail-925 PLATINUM, Boulder, Colorado
29 articles 7 photos 99 comments

Favorite Quote:
A story has as many versions as it has readers - Winter Of Our Discontent

Yeah, I can totally relate. Writing helps me express and I would definitely say I use it as an outlet too.

on Feb. 17 at 5:08 pm
LiteraryMe PLATINUM, Dayton, Ohio
29 articles 17 photos 16 comments

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“The earth has music for those who listen.” —William Shakespeare

I often feel similar, and I write nearly all my poetry in that way! Poetry for me is more of an outlet than a hobby :)