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Temporary

January 23, 2022
By 15195lyt BRONZE, Lock Haven, Pennsylvania
15195lyt BRONZE, Lock Haven, Pennsylvania
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I wasn’t lying when I said you reminded me of summer 

But I forgot that seasons are temporary 

You were temporary 

How silly of me to expect you to stay 

I cannot expect you to stay any more than I can expect the sun not to set

So as the weather changes

And I become cold in your absence 

I am reminded of how much I depended on you 


As I sit and feel the temperature begin to drop 

I can close my eyes and remember 

Remember your warmth 

Your smell 

The feelings you used to flood me with

And how pretty you were to admire

But that feeling is replaced


Replaced with something cold, bitter

Something the runs deeper than the warmth you brought

Poisoning the waters that used to feed my addiction

 

Now when I think of you 

I don’t feel fuzzy

I don’t even smile anymore

The thought of you 

The one that used to flash a smile across my face

Is replaced by tears

All that fall

But not nearly as hard as I mistakenly fell for you 


I don’t want to hate you

But I can’t help but want you to feel what I felt when you broke me

When my brain forgot what happiness was

When my heart was torn into a million pieces

When you shattered my soul 

I want to love you deeper than the earth’s core 


But that is not possible 

Not anymore 


You shot me

Your actions pierced me

Tearing holes in every inch of me

Leaving me vulnerable 

You shot me and now my feelings bleed

 They bleed on our memories

They are filtered with red

Instead of a happy yellow 

Left with only anger


You’ve ruined a good thing 

What used to make me happy 

Now only brings pain 

You only bring pain,


The author's comments:

It has always been hard for me to distinguish or put my feelings into words, but for some reason, I could write articles upon articles. Which is odd because this subject, above all others, seems to confuse me the most. 


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on Jan. 26 at 8:46 pm
ILiveToRead GOLD, Wailuku, Hawaii
19 articles 3 photos 129 comments

Favorite Quote:
"My music will tell you more about me than I ever will, don't ask me what i'm feeling, ask me what song am I listening to." "I think I'm afraid too be happy, because whenever I get to happy, something bad always happens."

According to your comment our confusing minds seems to work the same exact way haha what a shame and yet what a joy

on Jan. 26 at 8:45 pm
ILiveToRead GOLD, Wailuku, Hawaii
19 articles 3 photos 129 comments

Favorite Quote:
"My music will tell you more about me than I ever will, don't ask me what i'm feeling, ask me what song am I listening to." "I think I'm afraid too be happy, because whenever I get to happy, something bad always happens."

Oh my. Oh.. God. I never thought that anyone could get so close to what I had been feeling in words before. Jeez.. I can't believe this my eyes got hot and my breathing changed and I was glued to the words on this screen. tell me that this is real. yes. I understand you, you understand me. Truer words have never been spoken.

on Jan. 25 at 3:17 pm
Bumble_Bee PLATINUM, New Athens, Illinois
25 articles 1 photo 102 comments

Favorite Quote:
"You will be found" -Dear Evan Hansen

Love this <33