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Hiding the Self

February 2, 2022
By AztroWorkz BRONZE, Bellingham, Washington
AztroWorkz BRONZE, Bellingham, Washington
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I fall.

I descend into a hole that I've dug myself

And that I cannot dig my way back out of.

I feel the dirt hit my back

And the rocks bury themselves into my head

But I wonder, 



The dark consumes me.

I hide behind the monochrome clothing

and try to cover my skin,

shining bright colors

creating a rainbow that creeps under the door.

Despite that there is no-one to see it.

But I wonder,



I cover my mouth.

My tongue struggles to form words 

that other people might understand,

that I can say and still be safe.

I know I must do this.

But I wonder,


The author's comments:


This is my first post on TeenInk, and so I would love constructive criticism! Please give it to me. :)


This piece is about being closeted as an LGBT+ person, and having to lie about your sexuality or gender to people around you. It's based off of experiences that I had and still have, despite being mostly open to my parents and friends. It also is about any lies that you have to tell other people in order to protect yourself, whether it be about sexuality, gender, religion, ethnicity, or anything else.

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on Jun. 8 at 12:58 pm
AztroWorkz BRONZE, Bellingham, Washington
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@ Afra
Thank you!

Afra DIAMOND said...
on Apr. 25 at 7:13 pm
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Favorite Quote:
"You can’t ask other people to believe you and vote for you if you don’t back yourself."
-Jacinda Ardern-

"If I can make someone's day brighter, happier, better, that makes me happier."
-Ava Max-

"A writer must never be short of ideas."
-Gabriel Agreste- (Fictional character- Miraculous)

"A Bridge Has Two Sides."
-Elsa- (Fictional character- Frozen)

“I knew who I was as a girl but I had to find who I was as a woman.”
-Delta Goodrem-

Powerful and moving first poem!!! Excited to see more!!! :)