I step through the doors

I walk quickly and silently

Staring at the floor

I sit in my chair and stare straight ahead 

I put my hands on my face in hopes to hide it

Can you tell I was crying the night before?

Is it obvious I lay awake wishing for more?

It takes an hour or so until I speak

Why bother when you’re not interesting 

Inside I’m so fragile, nimble, and meek 

I flash a smile, throw some laughs 

Cover it all up.

Be tough.

Perfectly good at blending in

To you, I seem like a joy

Put together.

I joke and tease, playing coy

Can’t you see under it?

The desperate call?

It doesn’t matter either way.

Doesn’t matter at all

I step through the doors

Walking quickly to the car

It was good, as always

You seemed reassured, and like that was enough 

I did everything right, right?

Cover it all up.

Be tough.

I sink into the place filled with my thoughts.

At least here I can breathe 

At least here, I can be me.