unraveling emotions traveling down my face
I try to think of the good days
The moments when your hand was in mine
The day I kissed you on our bus ride
The smile that plays across your face
That made my heart skip a beat
And now I lay in my bed
And it's almost 2am
Because I hate how I lost you
You're so close and so far at the same time
All I want is you to be mine
Again
But I lost you in the way I wanted you
And in my mind when we said forever
I didn't think we'd be friends
I would rather try to make things work
For the rest of my life
Than try to find someone else in this timeline
Because you make me smile and laugh
I've shared so many things from my past
I let you see me cry
Fall apart inside
And you were there after I almost died
You put me first and cared
And made sure that nobody else could tear
Me apart and leave me for the dark
I miss the moments we had
On facetime with your light on red
I miss everything we had and I am lost
I am lost without you here
The way you were before
We can slap the silly label on
And call us friends
But that was never us and I don't know if that can happen
Because living in a world without you
Doesn't feel like a world worth living in
Does this line sound familiar?
I said that to you after you were in the hospital
After you were bullied by all my friends
and your mental health caved in
And you didn't want to live
Oh I was there
I was there for you
In ways nobody else could be
So I wish you didn't have to leave
I get it, things got hard
We fought sometimes but you gave up
And I wasn't ready to let you go
I wanted to keep you close
I wanted you with me
And I wish you'd known