I know that when people ask me 

Ask me if I am afraid of anything 

I say that I am not afraid of anything 

The truth is I am almost always afraid 

I am afraid of being alone 

I am afraid of being disliked 

I am afraid of not having anyone

I am afraid to trust

My biggest fear is not being loved

By my friends 

My family

Or anyone

So I don’t tell anyone my feelings 

I am afraid if I do that people will laugh 

Or not get it or that they won’t even care

I am scared to tell anyone

To open up

I am scared that they won’t like me anymore

I feel like I have to put on an act to 

Make people like me that way

I am afraid that if they know me for me

They won’t like me and that 

They won’t want to be friends with me

They won’t want me in their life