I’m just gonna lay my head on my sister's lap. Brother is petting my side. It’s making me tired. I see mom and dad in front of me in the car. I think I know where we are going, but that’s ok. “Why don’t you sleep Renn?” That’s my name, it means “racer” in German. Ok Sister, I’m just gonna cuddle and fall asleep until we get there… We are here. Walking through the front doors it’s a little scary, but I’m ok. My family is here and loves me. They wouldn’t let anything bad happen to me. They got my weight… a little low.  We turn into a room where Brother puts me on a table. Family is petting me, Sister is wandering around the room nervous, and a man is looking through bottles. I know what’s happening, but now I don’t know if I am ready. Sister walks to my face, “I love you my little racer”. I hear the man talk but I don’t know what he says. I look at Mom, then Dad, and then Brother. Tears in their eyes and love in their hearts. I’m not afraid anymore. I look at the man who pricks me and says “he’s gonna sleep now.” Sister is breathing weird as tears stream down her face. I lick them off. She rubs my ears, kisses my nose, my snout on both sides, and between my eyes. That is her goodbye kisses. Everything is fading, I lean my head on Mom to let her know I’m gonna be ok. And say my own last goodbye.