Oh God it was real, you were so real

You touched me and every nerve in my body lit up like a thousand stars

I look for that electricity when I stare into the sun, when I try new drugs

When I set myself on fire just to see if you come running to extinguish me

And oh I hate it

I hate the blank look on your face and the forced smiles when I repeat the same stupid jokes because they used to make us laugh

And I hate myself for ever believing that maybe I'd be your first taste of real love

But its the first drop of blood as you pull the knife from my chest

I made my heart an opened container for you

Let you choke down every last drop of love I had to give

I hope to God it burns when it comes back up, when this all catches up to you

I'm holding onto the pieces of a torn rope and I'm asking you to tie them back together

You just sigh and place your hands on my shoulders

But if only you knew, oh God if only you knew

How I knew from the night we met that I'd spend the rest of my days missing you

You want secrets? I have a secret

Someone had to leave first, its a tale as old as time

But I wish it could've been me

Come back to me, come back even if its as a shadow or a dream

Come back even if it means I can only have you in my sleep

Come home to my heart, let me lay in your bed

I'll play with your hair and whisper soft nonsense into your ear

Come back, but only if you'll stay

Because the truth is that I'm afraid of making your love too important

We can't deny that you'll always be the one to leave