Silent night

Eerie quiet

Tornado of emotion

Threatening to get out of control

But it’s not allowed to

Because it’s a

Silent night

Holy night

Forced cheerfulness

Fake smiles

Sadness threatening to 

Flood me

But I can’t complain

Because it’s a 

Holy night

All is calm

But only on the outside

Wildfire burning on the inside

Leaving nothing but the barest truth

But I have to hold it in

Because

All is calm

All is bright

Except for everything

An earthquake

Shaking everything from its roots

Fogging my mind up

But I can’t speak out

Because all is bright

I want to show my true self

I want to be who I am

I want to have a say in what I do.

But I’ll never be able to, will I?

Because

Every night is a

Silent night

A holy night

A calm night

A bright night.