Don’t worry, I am okay

A rainbow comes after a storm

at least i think and pray

cause this storm is hail on me

The pain is rough

and heavy and sharp

but i am tough

my parents say at least

as the moisture travels down my cheek

I wonder if I really am

or if i’m truly just weak

on the battlefield of emotion

I am okay though 

with knives sticking out of me

of everything i cant let go

of the trauma and the pain 

the rainbow is still not here

i have been waiting my whole life

everything is now a fear

my mind is full of tears

I am okay i think 

with a pressure on my chest

and the pain in every blink

my heart beats and beats

sometimes i wish it would stop

as everything becomes too much

the agony a gift shop

with only itself to give

I am okay i guess

Everything has become numb

and i must confess

i feel like an appendix

A part not needed but still there

as everything turns blank

and i’ve lost all care

for every thing

too much is now nought

yet somehow i can barely walk

so i lay shot

and look to find colors

for a rainbow is there

i want to feel joy

but i’ve fallen down stairs

so ill wait to disappear 

I am not okay