I just want to scream.

I’m sure people can relate to the feeling of being overwhelmed

But that’s the thing

I feel way more than just overwhelmed

I hear both everything and nothing at the same time

I’m surrounded by a circular wall and I feel like that wall is folding in on itself

Every ounce of my being wants me to crawl out of my skin

I have so much homework to do but I can’t think
College applications are coming soon but I can’t move

I have to work today but I can’t work

My mom is calling my name but I can’t talk

I just want to scream

Sometimes I pray to be numb, or normal

I can’t function here

“How are you?”

Such a simple question

Yet I can’t put into words how my palms are aching from the cactus I feel like I’ve been carrying all day or the tag that I forgot to cut off my t-shirt that is bleeding into my veins.

My vocal chords are tired and raw

They ache at the thought of having to repeat itself

But life goes on

The worst part of it all is that I will remain here

In a world designed for neurotypical people

Constantly trying to scream