My life is on lockdown,
and all I hear is this loud sound inside of me.
A sound that's yearning to be set free.
Free from the chains that's holding me.
Once abused and sent to school,
with shame on my face.
People questioning me,
but all I'm telling is lies,
to keep my mom from jail.
Daddy running from me,
and the courthouse,
for owing so much money,
and not supporting me.
Im crying at night,
and smiling the next morning.
I'm not being two-faced,
but I dont want nobody minding me.
For no one really cared for me,
except for God who loves me.
I wonder when life is going to change for me.
But now I realize,
I may have to just to me.
Cause im sick of people leaving me.
Saying they love you for a while,
then gone the next day,
leaving you confused,
wondering if it was because of you.
I'm sick of building that trust,
when they cant give the same back.
Leaving me alone,
with no one.
I'm tired of my life being bottled up,
when it's all ready been shocken up,
it's ready to explode,
but no one hasn't twisted my cap,
and let me spill out.
I wanna be heard,
so people can understand me,
and realize who I am,
is just me.
Give me a chance,
and just listen to me.
Don't leave me,
stick with me.
Dont let me be hurt again.
My heart is tired,
and wants to pump again.
I'm sorry for my mistakes from the past,
but stop bringing them up to em.
I have known what I did,
and I'm trying to fix me.
I jsut want to be heard,
and let this old person in side of me go.
I want to be set free.
I want to be a new me.
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