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i poured my heart out. simultaneously, it evaporated. MAG

March 1, 2010
By amanda.bower SILVER, Stacy, Minnesota
amanda.bower SILVER, Stacy, Minnesota
9 articles 2 photos 10 comments

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maybe i know that you'll crave my secure arms someday, but i'll have come across someone who wasn't afraid. and that's why i can't let go.

it's convenient. it's convenient because my leg fits perfectly against yours, and your arm rests neatly upon my shoulder blades as if my bones were molded specifically for your body structure. at times, my words fumble into unnecessary tongues, and my mind flutters with constant quarantines ­restraining what rests at the bottom of my esophagus: i can't grasp the thought of ­losing this, and i'm terrified of releasing my heart when your lips brush against the very corner of mine.

i've thought about the reassurance of pinning my thoughts onto a clothesline, and allowing the breeze to shrivel them up until nothing is pure except the truth. but the world can already see me tripping over my own two feet, colliding head-first with an ocean of complications. whatever we embrace right now is what staples my eyelids shut and leaves a smooth passageway into my heart.

but whether i'm stepping into a comfort zone with you or we're contemplating the dictionary definition of “love,” it's enough. it's enough because your aura is always trembling beneath my epidermis and giving a taunting flare to my nerve cells.if i allowed myself to feel how much i truly need you, or how much your face blurs the sentiments of reality and punctures my skull with chances that were too risky to endure, i'd fall in love with you. and i don't have the mentality to sanely put the pieces together when a bland expression overcomes your olive green eyes, explaining everything you could never admit: you could love me, but your hands are dripping with one too many “what ifs,” and caring about me too much could drown your senses.

so i'm counting the days until i can create ­another defiant emotion for a boy's heart that isn't painted with silver glitter, but tied with a golden ribbon that is incredibly ­sensitive to unwind. but maybe i'm asking for too much again.

maybe i know that you'll crave my secure arms someday, but i'll have come across someone who wasn't afraid.

and that's why i can't let go.

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on Jun. 13 2012 at 9:58 pm
JaneDoe_ BRONZE, MossPoint, Mississippi
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Favorite Quote:
“Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring.”
- Marilyn Monroe

Your poems are beautiful. You are very talented. This is quite my favorite poem by you!

on Nov. 14 2011 at 9:23 pm
AllForOne SILVER, Audubon, Pennsylvania
9 articles 0 photos 7 comments

Favorite Quote:
If the facts don't fit the theory, change the facts.
-Albert Einstein

Once again, ridiculously brilliant - I am not sure if it stands up next to the "eviction notice" poem (which is literally my favorite poem of all-time), but it is still a masterpiece, as most of your writing is. 

on Aug. 26 2011 at 12:59 pm
sasssgirrrl22 PLATINUM, Pearl River, New York
27 articles 0 photos 266 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Giving up is not a part of my vocabulary."
"Don't let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game."
"Truth be told I miss ya, truth be told I'm lying."

omg im officially in love with ur work(:

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on Jul. 19 2011 at 7:33 am
A_____, Columbus, Ohio
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I love the structure and visuals of this poem. Great job!

livesinwords said...
on Jun. 5 2011 at 6:03 pm
Another great piece! I am truly inspired...you are a blessing to a world of readers! (:

MRose911 GOLD said...
on Jan. 2 2011 at 2:19 am
MRose911 GOLD, Paradise, Utah
17 articles 10 photos 107 comments

Favorite Quote:
"No boy is worth crying over and the one who is won't make you cry." - Sarah Kane

This is absolutely amazing! A-M-A-Z-I-N-G!

on Aug. 4 2010 at 4:34 pm
rawrpiranha SILVER, Godfrey, Illinois
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this makes my heart hurt.

it's wonderful.

on Jul. 20 2010 at 12:14 pm
haventy0uheard PLATINUM, Kings Park, New York
28 articles 0 photos 186 comments
This. Is. Beautiful! I was completely sucked into this poem from the very begininng...wow. You have pure talent.

on May. 6 2010 at 10:49 pm
kread18 DIAMOND, Berkeley, California
65 articles 0 photos 33 comments
how do you come up with this stuff? It's brilliant.

on Apr. 22 2010 at 6:31 am
AndTheVinesSpin GOLD, Romulus, Michigan
11 articles 1 photo 44 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Love is the Movement" -TWLOHA
"Love is our weapon." -Christofer Drew
"I'ma get me a High School Diploma, even if I gotta steal one!" -ThisKidInMyMathClassLol

This is absolutely beautiful.