If only........

If I had a cut for every cut to my already broken heart,










I would have already bled to death
If I had a drop of poison for every tear I cried,










I would have already died in my sleep
If I had a gag for every time I screamed in agony,










I would have made a noose and hung myself
If I had a cliff for every time I fell for someone and got hurt,










I would have already jumped
If I had a match for every time I've been called heartless witch,










I would have burned myself at the stake
If I had a rusty dagger, for each person who broke my heart,










I would have killed them before they killed me inside.
Because I just want to die........
because of them I'm already dead, maybe you can't see past my deceiving smile, or my web of lies that I hide myself in, so no one can get close enough to hurt me, ever again......and my heart beats, only because I have to live for the sake of those who can see past my smile, and my web of lies. I love you, whoever you are, and i know you love me too, because you don't break my heart, you held my hand and we got lost together in this world where you should never have to be alone.
When I said I'm broken inside, you reached into my ribcage, and sewed my heart back together, and when I asked how you got it back together so perfectly, i found out, that to make a broken heart beat again, you gave me a peice of yours, and I want you to know, that I would do the same for you, because I love you whoever you are, because you're not just anyone, you're my true friend, and I'm giving you my heart........