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Could You Deal With It?

April 4, 2010
By CarolynQ GOLD, Manalapan, New Jersey
CarolynQ GOLD, Manalapan, New Jersey
10 articles 0 photos 220 comments

I could tell you what I feel if I knew how that even felt…
I’m not sure if I’m alive, not sure if I would even feel the pain induced by a belt…
I might be numb from depression or just overwhelmed with emotional pain…
I have nothing left to loose, what could I possibly have to gain…
I want to keep my head on straight, and not get too carried away…
I struggle to complete even a task as simple as that throughout the day…
I cry before I sleep, I question what it would be like if come tomorrow morning I was dead…
I roll over onto my side, curl up into a ball underneath the sheets of my comfortable bed…
I try to convince myself life will get better, but my mind is constantly plagued with doubt…
I look for a way to stop myself from think harshly, so far, no way out…
I want to keep my mouth shut when I feel the rage come over me so strong…
I want to keep my mouth shut, but truth is, they got the story all wrong…
I end up yelling, screaming out all the anger I couldn’t contain…
I attempt to hold back tears, I attempt to not complain…
I shake my head, confusion flowing up and down my spine…
I feel myself spinning, this prohibits me from walking a straight line…
I wait to put myself together, I’m tired of being broken pieces…
I’m through with coming up with questions to ask, I’m not writing another thesis…
I find myself terrified, I want nothing to do with my past…
I’ve found I am a coward, I heard those don’t last…
I want to ask questions to get answers, I want them to get the facts straight…
I’m not looking for a hug, I’m looking for them to accept, understand, and appreciate…
I want them to hear the truth this time, want them to not judge what I say or do…
I want them to think this time what if I were YOU?


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CarolynQ GOLD said...
on Jun. 20 2011 at 9:54 pm
CarolynQ GOLD, Manalapan, New Jersey
10 articles 0 photos 220 comments
Thanks again!!! :) Much appreciated!

on Jun. 20 2011 at 11:52 am
Alcanno DIAMOND, Mexia, Texas
59 articles 0 photos 670 comments

Favorite Quote:
"If you love life, don't waste time, for time is what life is
made up of."

-- Bruce Lee

This is OH-so powerful. The emotion in this is almost tangible, and I can relate so much, like I'm sure many other people can too. Great writing as usual :D

on Aug. 24 2010 at 7:47 pm
Amazing :)

CarolynQ GOLD said...
on Aug. 18 2010 at 12:02 am
CarolynQ GOLD, Manalapan, New Jersey
10 articles 0 photos 220 comments
Thanks so much my passion is writing and i really put everything i have into it, so yes the style ismost definately mine and i like to keep it that way. i will def keep you posted and i enjoyed hearing from you so thankyou again ill keep myself posted on your work :)

CarolynQ GOLD said...
on Aug. 18 2010 at 12:00 am
CarolynQ GOLD, Manalapan, New Jersey
10 articles 0 photos 220 comments
:) Im just happyy you think so i really appreciate it thankyou

on Aug. 17 2010 at 12:20 pm
aquarius SILVER, Lancaster, Pennsylvania
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Favorite Quote:
"unwelcome truths are not popular."

Finally got around to reading this one! [:

I love how you seem to have a writing style that is all yours. In this poem especially, you seem to create questions and then answer them yourself, which I adore, because it's so different from most other authors. It requires imagination. [:

Keep it up, always, and let me know when you've got new stuff! :D


Han15 BRONZE said...
on Aug. 10 2010 at 2:59 pm
Han15 BRONZE, Doncaster, Other
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Wow! Its great how you've explained everything. Not seen anything that goes so deep recently so keep writing and i'll enjoy it all!

on Jul. 26 2010 at 2:12 pm
Boosflash DIAMOND, Papillion, Nebraska
55 articles 0 photos 2066 comments

Favorite Quote:
What the front door.

sure thingage captain.

CarolynQ GOLD said...
on Jul. 18 2010 at 9:16 pm
CarolynQ GOLD, Manalapan, New Jersey
10 articles 0 photos 220 comments
:) I'm happy they caught your attention.

on Jul. 18 2010 at 6:59 pm
Boosflash DIAMOND, Papillion, Nebraska
55 articles 0 photos 2066 comments

Favorite Quote:
What the front door.

okay,... the first, second, third, *fourth, 19, 20, 23 and 24 lines murdered the poem. by that i mean they made the poem and it was really good. everything else was pure awesomeness but i really loved those lines. i love the rhyming scheme aussi. do your dance with these five stars of mine.

on Jun. 3 2010 at 9:48 am
MustangWriter1813 PLATINUM, Crooks, South Dakota
45 articles 7 photos 128 comments

Favorite Quote:
" No one can told you back besides yourself " MaKayla Claymore class of 2013

Hey I have 2 new pieces check it out when you have a min its called I should have and the other one is Save me

CarolynQ GOLD said...
on May. 22 2010 at 4:36 pm
CarolynQ GOLD, Manalapan, New Jersey
10 articles 0 photos 220 comments
im so happy you liked it! Thankyouuu

on May. 21 2010 at 7:03 am
MustangWriter1813 PLATINUM, Crooks, South Dakota
45 articles 7 photos 128 comments

Favorite Quote:
" No one can told you back besides yourself " MaKayla Claymore class of 2013

Wow this is one of the most amazing pieces I've seen latley! You really now how to tug at the reader's heart! You get the reader to think about it..and I find that as one of the most interesting parts of writing. I too try to work that into my pieces. Keep up the great work!

CarolynQ GOLD said...
on May. 2 2010 at 5:23 pm
CarolynQ GOLD, Manalapan, New Jersey
10 articles 0 photos 220 comments
Thankyouu!! :)

Darley SILVER said...
on May. 2 2010 at 3:48 pm
Darley SILVER, Meadow Vista, California
5 articles 0 photos 12 comments

Favorite Quote:
" What matters most is how you see yourself."

I do really like this! You are a natural writer! I will Keep posted on your work. :)

Freida SILVER said...
on May. 2 2010 at 2:59 pm
Freida SILVER, Marietta, Georgia
5 articles 0 photos 2 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Insanity is in the eye of the beholder"

Wow, you are a splendid writer! All of your work is amazing and deep.

on May. 1 2010 at 1:40 am
amicrazyorisitjusteveryoneelse PLATINUM, Kula, Hawaii
48 articles 0 photos 198 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Everything you dream is real and everything real is a dream"

i love it... it's so deep and you put so much of your soul into this poem