the buzz wearing off
ignorance is gone
he ends up where he started
he feels discarded
destroyed by the thing he craved so much
his liver cries
his kidneys sob
his mind screams in protest
his nature eggs me on
the eyes try to close but he keeps them open
music keeping him up
a new start
day one
he remembers many of these instances
sometimes when you know you've gone over the edge
you forget what's there for you
he forgot everything
he shooed my problems away with vices
physical actions
and substances
addiction's the next big thing in teenage culture
he has nothing to say
his mind is wandering
blank even
the late night not effecting his mind
he tries to be confident about this fresh start
but something deep inside him says this will happen
and continue to happen until his death
he must resist
if he gives up then he shows weakness
so he tries again to stop
every nature he created himself
though he may blame other outside problems
the only reason he has this
is because of himself
his control not holding
this is life
he is in a state of relapse