This life wears me down
I cry tears of a clown
I am grateful for my life
Even though I’m passing through strife
I don’t want this life
It seems so unlike me
I don’t understand what happened
Everyone’s laughing
But me
I can’t see why
I even try
So hard
But I’ll never get there
In there I see nothingness
Emptiness
It’s all meaningless
To me
If you could see
What I’m truly like
I see a light
It’s blue
It promises me
No more hurtful emotions
I stare at the ocean
Everything is in slow motion
My life passes
I want light and darkness
The darkness shines
The light cannot be seen
I don’t know where I’ve been

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