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I Am Human

August 13, 2010
By A.Bekah.Girl GOLD, Menlo Park, California
A.Bekah.Girl GOLD, Menlo Park, California
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Twisting words inside my head
Over and over
I pull them out of my mind
Like they're alphabet beads on a string
They don't stop
They won't
I'll be stuck like this forever
Driven mad
Perhaps you've felt this way
Perhaps you haven't
Like something is running wild in your mind
But it won't ever go away
I run my fingers through my hair
It seems to have a calming effect
But it still leaves my hands tense
My fingers clench
Even as I type these words
My hand
This is me
There is no line between the author and the speaker
They taught me to keep them separate
But I can only wear my own shoes
This is so real
The emotion
I feel tingles up and down my spine
Life is a strange, strange thing
I feel like a dancer
Fighting with words
Instead of limbs
Trying to match the rhythm
Hold me
I need someone to hold me
Are my eyes closed or open?
I don't even know anymore
As I sit in my chair
I rock back and forth
My right leg aches
So does my right hand
I'm sweating and I don't know why
My eyes are tired
I just put hair up
Tentatively held in place by a clip that's too small
I am human
I am real
I am not some hidden creature
Created by words on a page
The words are what keeps me alive

The author's comments:
Because the author feels just as much as the speaker. Because madness can be lovely. Because all pain is felt by someone. Because.

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This article has 3 comments.

on Oct. 3 2010 at 8:42 pm
Alcanno DIAMOND, Mexia, Texas
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Favorite Quote:
"If you love life, don't waste time, for time is what life is
made up of."

-- Bruce Lee

I agree with apocalyptigirl - this is powerful in a raw emotional way. I don't even think you need to break it up, you're right to leave it because it tell the reader more about how you were feeling when you wrote this. I like it a lot and can definitely relate.

on Sep. 29 2010 at 7:00 pm
A.Bekah.Girl GOLD, Menlo Park, California
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i was kind of confused when i wrote it. sort of. i never figured out where i was going, really. i'm not sure if i want to change that aspect of it. i feel like it wouldn't be as honest if i cleaned it up. but i do see what you're saying. it's really a big mess of words thrown together. but that was what i felt like. so...ill think about it...

on Sep. 28 2010 at 3:26 pm
apocalyptigirl BRONZE, Staunton, Virginia
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Favorite Quote:
"DON'T PANIC." ~from The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy by Douglas Adams

I am sad no one has commented on this one yet!!! I like the rawness of emotion. Confessional poetry is like that, generally...I mean, you still put on a poetic voice to write but the speaker is pretty much you. I would suggest dividing this up into stanzas? It seemed disorganized and overwhelming--maybe that was what you were going for, but me being my ocd self I didn't like it, haha.