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rubber band

August 6, 2010
By maybesomeday2 GOLD, Atlanta, Georgia
maybesomeday2 GOLD, Atlanta, Georgia
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Favorite Quote:
"if we begin to discover a feeling within ourselves that nothin in this world can satisfy we should begin to wonder if perhaps we were created for another world" -C.S Lewis

Long sleeves will be worn, with my heart torn
Because I can’t let people see
These marks of betrayal etched on my skin
Welts left hastily

When I want to give in, and slice through my skin
I settle for my rubber band
Because it’s the closest thing I can feel to pain
As I snap it from my hand

It stings at first, but I embrace this hurt
To give me a reason to cry
Because I just can’t find a real reason
No matter how hard I try

So I’ll snap my band, as I try to stand
In this storm that just won’t pass
And then I’ll let my rubber band fly
Left wondering how long this will last

I’ll wear my longs sleeves, and try to breathe
And try to hush what I really need
A nice cut flowing blood
Down the drain left from my knee

The marks are here, without the tears
And I’ll run to hide my shame
And I’ll keep snapping this old rubber band
Convincing myself it gives enough pain

The author's comments:
looking back now...i think this was the beginning of my anger stage in the process of healing from self injury. if your not familiar with it, rubberband snapping is something to do to stop yourself from cutting. you snap them on your wrist or wherever to release the feelings of craving to cut. i was bitter and angry at the world. glad to say im in a much better state of mind these days :)

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