If you really knew me
you would know
that I am
fearful,
Because I know I’m being left behind, and there nothing I can do about it.
If you really knew me
you would know,
that I am not typical cheerleader
I hate popularity, and I’m sick of judgment.
If you really knew me
you would know,
how much I hurt inside,
regrets get all pent up and sometimes it’s just too much.
If you really knew me
you would know,
how many sleepless nights I’ve spent crying.
If you really knew me
you would know,
I WANT TO BE INVISIBLE AGAIN.
If you really knew me you would know
that I’m becoming numb.


If you really knew me
you would know that I’m so lost,
I fear I can never be found.
If you really knew me,
you would see that I’ve been a rock for people for so long,
that I crumbled into pieces from the pressure.
If you really knew me
you would know that I’ve lost the two people that meant the most to me ever since I was little.

If you really knew me,
you would know that
I lock myself
away
in my room
avoiding all human contact,
for who knows what reason.
If you really knew me,
you’d pity me
and that’s not what I want.
I want to be given a second chance
to start over from preschool to now...
If you really knew me
you would know that I’m
not really accepted easily by people.
I’m just too different, I guess.




If you really knew me
… You wouldn’t have to read this.