The desire to be the best i can is too great to hold
It leads to distractions and puts me more on the edge
My angriest face and most raw insecurities begin to unfold
The anticipation and the impatience makes me want to be dead
All other things seem to not matter,your goal is distraction
Why,oh why can't I remember the things that matter
When will I feel that my efforts are making an action
My will to keep moving on is becoming sadder
I need to hve my life back in my hands
Because if I over-obsess I could never hope to achieve
If I keep going on,more attention and jealousy will demand
I'll turn into a maniac and try to decieve
I don't want to become the devil's assistant
I don't want to be sleeping with the enemy
I need the Holy One to hear my desperate chant
How lonf will it take the answer to be so clear,so I can see
Lord,help me now because I can't see myself in the mirror
And I don't want to give in to the seduction of the enemy
But,I love this person and I love this want so much more
But,this love is taking all of my energy