how can you do this to me
how can you look me in the face
how can i look at you
knowing that you’re betraying me like this
how can i stare into your eyes and say i love you when you hurt me so?
how can you bear to continue this
continue when you know how much it hurts me
maybe you don’t
maybe you’re just ignoring it
it doesn’t matter cause you haven’t stopped
i looked up to you, i did
so much, but then you shattered my world
turned it upside down
and made my love, my adoration into a joke, something to be forgotten
broken
left by the roadside in the wake of all you’ve done
broken my trust of you and then used yours against me
its all a game to you
all something that there for you to use
and maybe you’ve been through hell and back
im sure you have, you took me with you
everything that happened you took me with you
i saw it, my own twisted show, and i still loved you
still adored you, still trusted you, because that’s who you were
you were my role model, not a perfect one by any standard, but mine
and you threw that in my face
abused it
made it meaningless, made me seem the fool for trusting you
but i can’t hate you for that
i can only love you
that’s all i can ever do is love you
and i know you love me
but it seems meaningless because it is, it is in the light of what you’ve done
perhaps nothing big in the scale of the world
but monumental in the scale of my world
maybe if i knew why
but why wouldn’t answer it
wouldn’t fix anything
might make it worse
but who knows
cause i’ll never ask you
never let on how much you hurt me
cause to do that
would break your heart
and that i can never do
because i love you
i will always love you